i want tonight, again

The only thing more amazing than this, right now, would be if I could have it go on forever.

It’s raining now, but I feel so warm inside.

I love this feeling when I’m with you =)

Happy memories =) <3

I’m blogging about a few events that have happened through the week that are either 1) really nice, sweet and create happy feelings when I recall them, or 2) very special and new to me. I have some photographs from some events so this might turn out to be a very photo-heavy post. Oh well! The more the merrier right? =) I shall begin!

1. Welcome home silver =)

Silver finally returned home after a three day two night stay at the pet hospital where she was kept under tight observation for any new signs of seizures. She seemed completely normal when she came back, but her panting was still really quick, and I spent about an hour just being with her that night. She really is extremely extremely friendly, just like beagles should be.

She now gets to run around the front of the house in the morning, and it’s made her much happier. I think mum’s finally given in and doesn’t want to be too strict with her! =) She flipped the bin outside at least once again, and I’m thinking of telling mom to be less stubborn and to relocate it.

Something really cute happened the day after she came back! Baobei came over, and he played with her and cuddled her and just let her pounce and step and do everything to him. It gave me a nice feeling everytime I knew that they were having fun with each other, and it makes me happy to see her so happy. =) He was trying to do this strange quick-step action to give her a shock and everytime he did it she would pounce on him! Cute =) Happy =D !

Haha, it makes me really happy. =) We’re still monitoring her to make sure the symptoms don’t return, and that she’s completely healed.

2. Mango(oooooo!)steens! =)

I never knew we had a mangosteen tree in our backyard until I saw these things lying around on the table in the living room.

Sounds pretty amazing doesn’t it, for a tree that’s only about 5 and a half years old. The tree was first planted when we bought the land, and now that it’s mature and producting fruits, mum collects the mangosteens when they’re ripe and we get to eat them! I shared one with baobei the other day and it’s so so sweet, much sweeter than those you buy from the markets even and even though they’re small, they’re really quite a blessing. =)

Silver eats them too (against mum’s wishes of course) =P. Even she can’t resist them! ^^ I find it so cool, because it makes me feel so domestic, and I think I shall grow reliant on them to produce more for us! Heehee.

3. Basketball session in school

Baobei had two sessions of basketball with a few friends during the holidays, and though I didn’t join them, it was fun to just sit at the steps and watch them play. It was also fun to photograph them under the bright lights, and watch baobei do some really amazing lay ups and have the time of his life. =) I said it before, and I’ll say it again… I’ll never get tired of watching you play on court or off court because you’re spectacular! =)

Anyway, diverging from my self indulgence (heehee), I think it’s possible to analyze a person’s skills through mere observing, but you can only completely see or ‘feel’ someone’s capability when you’re playing with them, which makes me think that this sport is pretty overwhelming because of the amount of variety of skill and technique that differentiates a player from another. It just feels that way to me. So intense, so fiery, competitive, and glorifying with every scored basket. Are most ball sports like that? I’m not sure.

I realize that I’ve always had a thing for it, even before secondary school. I used to shoot with my dad/mom almost weekly since I was what, 8? and I remember my PE teacher in NYPS saying I could consider joining the sport CCA (but I didn’t want to) since Pri 3. In sec 1, I bought mangas about the sport, and felt everything about it to be just absolutely stunning and cool etc, and some classmates and I would spend hours just shooting at the courts near our classroom after class with a ball we stole that belonged to the school tea… (you get the idea). =) I can say that I’ve had a history of feeling passionate for the sport, but only after meeting you, did I learn that it’s not as simple as it seemed to be.

It’s a sport, but it can mean much more, because you simply can’t teach heart, and I think that’s what makes you playing basketball so life changing/ special to me. =)

4. Cafe Cartel, TYSVM (thank you so very much!)

Being big fans of Cafe cartel’s pork ribs for a long time already (since march 2008 when baobei first introduced it to me ^^), we visited the outlet at Bishan once again, craving yummy food. This time, like all the other few times, we ordered their speciality pork ribs, with iced peach tea, free flow of toasted bread with butter and soup of the day, and tucked in happily…

Nom nom nom nom nom… *chews*

Yaaaarrrrrmmmmmeeeeeeeeeee~ ~ ~

But one thing was different, because we had finally filled in THE CARD ….

with enough stickers!!! =)

This card is part of a Cafe Cartel promotion since Oct 08, where you are entitled a sticker from each order of Pork Ribs and when you’ve collected enough/7 stickers, you can have a plate of their new honeybaked crispy pork ribs for FREE! As you can see, since the promotion started, we visited the shop twice in oct (first month), one time in dec, twice in jan, once in apr and the last time this month!

And here’s a picture of the yummy dish, which proved to be as perfectly rendered also.

=D ! =D ! =D !!!

I still have a liking for the original pork ribs though, but this was delicious too! Everyone should go try it when they have the chance to. We cleared both dishes, along with a basket of bread (we used to do 3 haha), soup, butter and tea, and were stuffed to the high heavens afterwards. I guess I’ve had quite enough pork ribs for a month.

Til the next!!! ^^

5. Fun with boxing gloves

This was really cute, really really cute.

Darryl got baobei a pair of boxing gloves from the UK trip last year as a present, and I still remember how he looked like when he first put them on – SHUAI! ^.^ And so we happened to be walking around in one of the sports shops at Velocity some time back when dear noticed a pair of boxing gloves that were much bigger than his lying on the shelf next to him. He proceeded to try them on, saying they were bigger etc, and I couldn’t help but snap a picture first…

There. Boxing champion #1 from cutest punches festival in Lalaland! =D Ahaha

And then we proceeded to browse through other sports shops, until we saw another pair of boxing gloves, and dear proceeded to try them on too.

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MONSTER GLOVES!!!

They were some 5 times larger than the normal gloves !!! The sponge on a single glove is larger than his entire face. It was so funny !!! =D Hahaha, and definitely worth remembering, because I haven’t seen anything this dramatic for a long time already. =) Baobei… you look so tiny. =) =D

6. The furry little stray

Baobei and I were waiting for tuition to start one evening in the holidays, and we noticed that the boss of the centre had bought food for a little stray cat, and put it into a tray outside to feed him. She left after a while, and I went out to play with him, and boy was he friendly! The moment I had stepped out, he purred at me and started brushing himself against my feet repeatedly, walking back and forth. I knelt down to stroke him and before I knew it I was so caught up with everything that I was tickling him and just playing with him. =)

Dear helped us take some pictures. =) I especially love the second photograph because you can tell he’s looking right in baobei’s direction and he’s raising his little paw! And the last photograph is priceless because I gently squished up his face and it’s all small and adorable and though it looks a little uncomfortable, ^^” but he looks so cute right! ^^ Aww! Like a little bunny… =D 

I think he’s so cute, and I hope he’ll be there tomorrow when we go for math. =) I can’t wait to play with him again!!

8. Rainbows on earth

I love these.

It’s not photoshopped, and I didn’t alter the contrast or sharpen the colours, because I wanted it to remain this way. It’s all 100% natural goodness, captured by my trusty camera on a good hot sunny saturday morning at the bus stop outside baobei’s place/aljunied park.

It’s lovely isn’t it? How rainbows like these just run themselves over the seats or the ground as the light shines through glass panels (in this case, at the bus stop). I see them quite alot, and I still think it’s beautiful. It almost, almost looks like it’s coming out of my hand… =)

Somehow they appear more often around Aljunied than in any other place I know.

^^

So I secretly think it just might be you. =)

Meep! ^^

Harrrloooo there! ^^

Spent a fun/random two hours with Oce just now at her place before we parted ways to our own afternoon fun. =) Thanks for the company Oce =)

The afternoon was spent with baobei dearest. =) We’re back at his place now resting from all the walking and laughing all over Orchard. I’m feeling much much more comfy now that my butt and legs are well rested! -grins happily-

Ice Age III was awesome!!! =D

We were laughing loudly through out because of the endless supply of puns and jokes, and the ‘Crazy’ squirrel, his favourite! ^^ hahaha, and Sid are such drop-dead funny characters. It’s mad highness! They rule comedy. 8D

I’ve also fallen in love with baby Ice Age animals like the baby mammoth awwww, and baby T-rex dinosaurs. ^^ Their voices are the cutest in the world, and I gushed everytime they made those soft little baby noises that sound like ‘eerhh’ or ‘ooo!’ or ‘nyaa’ or or or… ahhhhhh there’s so mannnnyyyy ! They make me feel so ticklish inside heeheehee, it’s so cute and adorable and happifyingggg yayee ^^!

I found some pictures of them. They overwhelm me… @_@

The cute little baby mammoth that touched everyone’s heart!

Ohmygosh her EYES! ^_^ They’re big and beautiful like my baobei’s right =)? Lalalaaa~ ^^ Save it for yourself!!!  I took so long to find this photo and cropped her out/magnified her. She’s going to be on my dp for some time! =)

The 3 T-rex babies, which don’t look that flattering here but are so adorable in the show! =) I like the one who wears the shell on his head sometimes in the show =D

Baobei kindly waited with me in the theater for any scenes after the credits, but there were none ^^”, so we ended up leaving the place last hahaha oopsie =). So if anyone’s wondering, you can leave the theatre right after the animals stop dancing and the credits roll.

I felt that this was the best in the trilogy (Ice Age has survived extinction! bwahaha =D), and the effects and sounds were fantastic and animation’s just pure genious, so go catch it for a good laugh. =)

Meep meep meep … woaarrrrrrrr ^^! *Gushes*

Now, back to lovie. =)

Hungry girl

(This honestly has nothing to do with exams even though it sounds so much like it).

You disappoint me.

I really hate it when I don’t recieve what I deserve. Last time I wasn’t quite sure how much I deserved but now I think I know. Yes, it’s true that you might not recieve the same amount you give, and you should just be contented with what you have, but I’m sitting here realizing that I may have given close to 80 but I’m getting just 20, and I feel like I’ve been short-changed of my emotions. A part of me is upset, because it feels like I shouldn’t have given anything at all, so I won’t be expecting anything back in return. But I (know that I) shouldn’t be thinking this way, because it’s wrong. Right now I’m just mad at myself for feeling this way (it’s rather uncalled for …), and even more mad at myself because I can’t concentrate on memorizing Bio. Nothing’s going in because I’m feeling so worked up, and I feel rather helpless about it. The thought that I might be able to concentrate better if I didn’t feel this disappointed is nagging at the back of my head and making me feel even worse. My goodness.

Emotions aside,

- I haven’t had breakfast, and it’s already time for lunch. Who in the world is kind enough to get brunch for me? I’m afraid that I might just end up starving to death on this chair in the living room because our kitchen is out of food, and I’m too worked up and lazy to get lunch. I will eat anything right now.

- I need company. If only Claire could come over and just be her(cute, likable)self. Or anybody or anything. Just to sit in the living room and watch television or use my lap top or swim in the pool while I study for Bio. It’s hard to describe how it makes me feel more motivated to study, and so much less alone in the world. Now that everyone’s finished (mostly everyone) CTs, the world seems a whole lot more distant now, and quieter.

- The idea of Post CT plans made me rather happy. But I feel like cancelling everything and just spending time at home alone, cooking the days away. It’s therapeutic, and so is eating (good food fills not just a stomach but an empty soul)! Ahh! Speaking of cooking again, I want to bbq lobsters soon, if I can get enough people to come over to eat them for me. =) I think I don’t want to go out after Bio tomorrow.

- I miss France. The knee-high soft snow that gathers at the back of the hotel. The night when it was snowing and I stood and I felt the cold air on my cheeks. I miss the landscape so much. It’s probably the most beautiful place I’ve seen and been to, and it’s one of the best ski resorts in the world too! I also miss seeing the Glaciers at New Zealand (the land of the kiwis), which was just drop-dead gorgeous. Imagine the water of a flowing river (bigger, much bigger) freeze into ice as it’s about to crash onto land, and that’s the general structure. Amazing. And I feel lucky to have seen it before global warming got worse, cause apparently it’s losing its structure now. I also also miss China Trip/Taiwan Trip! I want to go overseas after As to somewhere beautiful again. =)

The way you make me feel

i love you.

I don’t think it’s something I have to make anyone else understand because it’s difficult to as love is such an intimate feeling. It really is. You set yourself to become so vulnerable to so many things when you’re in love that it can be terrifying, but at other times, just beautiful. You can’t really find the words to express it exactly, but deep down somewhere you can feel it pulsing consistently, strongly, and it doesn’t go away. It’s not meant to go away. There is this characteristic that grabs you and changes you almost immediately when you’re sure of it, and it forms a lingering crust.

Once you love, (and you can trust me when I say this), the love stays forever.

Insomnia

“Because i can’t sleep til you’re next to me
No i can’t live without you no more
Oh i stay up til you’re next to me
Til this house feels like it did before
Feels like insomnia ah ah, Feels like insomnia ah ah
Feels like insomnia ah ah, Feels like insomnia ah ah”

Not a big fan of techno, but Craig David’s Insomnia is pretty addictive, and baober’s addicted to it! =D The beat is fun and you can bop to it too, that’s a plus factor!

In sommm niaaa~ ahh ahhhh ahhhhhhh! feels like innn sommm niaaaa~ ahh ahhhh ahhhh!  Mm mm ~ =)

The past few nights have kind of been like that too. I find it more difficult to fall asleep at ‘normal’ timings because my body refuses to adjust. We have been naughty in the holidays, heeheehee. Hopefully I’ll be able to reset my body clock before the end of the week. You must too. =)

Just some nice thoughts

This June was spent very much different from last year’s, but still that familiar feeling lingers.

It really feels as though I’ve submerged myself into a bucket full of dreams, and I soak in it. Mmhmm. I feel light on some mornings, light enough to be carried off by the sunshine. Worries, however big and scary, can be eradicated in a flash when something happy comes by, like a big long hug, or a kind ear, and somehow the good feeling tends to stay.  

Sometimes I just want to burst out of my skin and shout and exclaim how great and comfortable I feel! How amazing it feels in that very moment to be at wherever, doing whatever, whenever. How splendid and exciting and funny and happy =) How the smallest of things, whether intentional or not, can brighten up my day to such measures, and I just want to share it, when I can.

I really think it’s all because of you, that I feel this way about life sometimes. That life, however structured or demanding, can be so beautiful. I can feel so beautiful. And I feel that you’re so beautiful too, really, even though you’re a boy…

You are ><.

Death creeps up on you

Do you think… just maybe, he’s finally found his neverland? Maybe if we all thought this way, it wouldn’t seem so sad. The media and critics have been so harsh on him for the past few years. I believe that most of the time, he just wanted to be left alone.

Why does it seem that someone only matters so much (to you) after he’s gone?

I’ll always remember the first time I saw him dancing on television, the horrified expression on mummy’s face when he did his signature moves (haha), and how dad was the one who taught me how to listen to his voice. That voice, how can a voice be so …soft? It’s lovely. And all the times I stared in amazement and tried to imitate him moonwalking. Wowhee! I’ve never succeeded. =)

Rest in peace.

Extend our holidays ftw =)!

“www.channelnewsasia.com/singapore

Vote for an extension of school holidays in the poll at the bottom left hand corner of the page. Tell all your friends! “

I got the news via sms from some dear classmates =). I don’t know how effective this poll can be, but you can see from the results thus far that we have a sure winner…

 

Extend holidays, please? =D

Traumatised

Silver’s not okay.

She’s recuperating at the pet hospital now, after having a couple of seizures(if that’s exactly what you call it) in the morning. Ma and Pa both don’t know what’s up exactly, but they both tell me it’s fits, so I searched it up and I think it’s Idiopathic Epilepsy that she’s suffering from. Having witnessed symptoms after the seizure, I’m quite sure it is. And I think it’s because she ate something from the bins outside that contained toxins or poisonous elements.

It scared me alot, and I only witnessed the end of the event. Dad saw the whole thing happen and said there was a moment when she couldn’t control her body and just banged around things and fell onto the ground. She hurt herself too, but wasn’t conscious of it. Her mouth was bleeding while I tried to calm her down. She was restless, she yelped alot, … it’s not something that you can try to forget even if you wanted to. It was traumatising, and it hurt because you couldn’t do anything about it. All you could do was to watch, and just try to comfort her, and just keep looking at her. If I didn’t have to go for tuition in the morning, I wouldn’t have left her side…

Pa and dear both said it’s our fault for leaving the bin outside, and it isn’t the first time she’s flipped the bin and ate some of the food in it. We should have moved the bin else where. I know, … we know, we just didn’t see this coming at all. And I feel so terrible. She’s having SEIZURES, she’s hurting and I don’t even know if she’s alright yet.

I really feel like crying, but I’m in a room full of children, and I just. can’t.

=)
Jia you!

17/06/09

Under the wild night sky when night falls
you lie right beneath these diamonds
I close my eyes, I would shut my ears if I could
to stop myself from its blinding

how many times can you honestly say
you’ve lived today like it’s your last?

loltybb… huh?

People have different levels of tolerance.

There are somethings I can’t tolerate… certain words or phrases, because I find that they’re just there to fill gaps in conversation. They don’t mean anything because they sound insincere, or even a little mean and cold. I think some people know I can’t stand it when people use ‘lol’ to replace their ‘haha’ or ‘ty’ when they should be saying ‘thank you’ or…. You might as well not say anything! ..but I’m guilty of typing or writing this way too, when I give in to my emotions.

外婆80岁了!

Just came back from my grandma’s 80th (surprise) birthday celebration! =)

It was held at this Teochew City Seafood Restaurant somewhere near Robinsons. Mum and uncles booked half the restaurant for the celebration, stage, lights and all, and we had around a hundred guests in total! We invited my grandma’s siblings, relatives, friends, exercise mates, everybody! The cousins and I sat at table 2 out of the ten. =)

We arrived at 5.30pm and welcomed the guest to their tables. My grandma came last and had this really grand entrance! =D There was music and a professional photographer who was my cousin’s friend, and she was really shocked/happy. Brilliant =) There was this long queue of guests who wanted to congratulate her/wish her happy birthday/give her ang paos… and she was so overwhelmed by everything. It took some ten minutes before everyone settled down to start dinner. =D

大姐姐 and I were MCs for the night! Mum wrote a script for us hahaha! We spoke in chinese, but attempted speaking a little Teochew and managed to pull it off! Luckily the audience of mama’s old friends and relatives could understand us, though I can’t quite tell if I’m speaking it any differently from them heehee. I guess we just sound different ^^ Anyway, Teochew’s such a soft/sweet dialect compared to Hokkien and others. It’s nice to speak/listen to. =)

We invited a 23 year old 变脸 master to perform for us too! Cool, though it isn’t the first time I’ve watched a performance like that. It was really quite spectacular though, and I haven’t figured out how he switches masks so quickly. I bet they’re in the cloak!!! But … ah, I guess I will never get to know the secret. /_\ Maybe I can try it someday!

The food was so-so, compared to other high end restaurants, but my tummy was well pampered so I guess I shan’t complain too much. >< I actually had a packet of medium fries and two bread talk buns around 6 before the event began, and I still could eat so much. Heh, I guess I’m just living up to my insatiable appetite. -_- Quite scary.

Oh!!! And how could I not mention this. Nai nai’s cake was HUGE. It’s almost say… six times the size of my face? or two times the size of my back! I don’t know exactly, but I think you can imagine right. =)

Nai nai seemed happy through out, though a little stone, but I managed to talk to her a little after we came home before she started to count ang pao money and she kept saying how happy she was yay! I actually cried a little, just listening to her talk. I mean, I feel really happy that she’s happy, and that she could celebrate her birthday with so many people. It’s so heart warming! And she’s so generous, it’s so uncommon. ><

She’s sleeping now. Happy 80th birthday nai nai!

Because you love her.

Why did you let her break your heart?