Happy Birthday, Kevyna!

This was supposed to be posted yesterday, but WP was down. Bad WP, Bad!

=) It’s 2.14am in the morning, and I’m still awake. Feng just went off to sleep, so I’m going to snuggle into bed soon as well. I spent my entire week with him, and I’ve become dependant on his presence for comfort and company. We’ll be having Turtle Soup tomorrow, how exciting ahh!!! Can’t wait to step down the bus and be greeted with a fuzzy bear hug. x)

I just wanted to wish my friends over in the UK the best of health and happiness, and that their adventure has been marvelous so far. I really miss all of you. I haven’t a clue how to contact any one of you, because there isn’t internet connection, and it’s expensive to send text messages + I don’t think you guys would turn on your phones to recieve anything. I hope that everyone will have a wonderful time celebrating her birthday there, and I hope that everyone will make her day great for her.

From left: Feng, James, Ruyun, Wan Lin, Pang, Kevyna, Lena, Me

That’s us at the airport. =) Feng and I are like the Singaporean border (for my foreign friends who don’t know, the Singapore flag is coloured in Red and White). We all look so happy. =D

Happy birthday Kevy, I hope you’ll have a happy, happy 17th birthday. =)

I scream: ICE CREAM!

n.   A smooth, sweet, cold food prepared from a frozen mixture of milk products and flavorings, containing a minimum of 10 percent milk fat and eaten as a snack or dessert.

‘Ice cream! Ice cream! Come get your ice cream!’ And the next most expected thing is to see a bunch of kids shouting and waving pennies in their hands as they herd around an ice cream truck on a hot, dry afternoon.

What is an ice cream to you? To many, a scoop of ice cream is … just merely a scoop of ice cream, which will soon be devoured by a hungry human who needs something cool on a hot, sunny day. An ice cream can be a special treat – it could not only be expensive, but precious, something you only get to eat after inputting alot of hard work. It can be a reward you recieve when you do well for tests, a sign of achievement and wealth, or an action of encouragement. Alternatively, a single scoop of ice cream could be an everyday thing, something so common and normal that it doesn’t strike up much interest to you. Devouring an ice cream could be something you are so familiar with – the taste doesn’t register much of anything on your tongue, and that coldness is so … mundane. You crave for something ten times more thrilling.

Well think about it this way – if a scoop of ice cream brought a taste of satisfaction and happiness each time you consumed it, life could be so much more delightful! =) If we learn to harvest this attitude in our everyday life, you’ll be surprised at how pleasant life can be, even if today wasn’t really your day. The simple pleasures of life can motivate you in many ways, to live life happier, and with more meaning.

Eating ice cream can be so meaningful!

Something special: Ice Cream is also called ‘Glass’ in Swedish. Isn’t that cool? I don’t know if the pronounciation is the same but the spelling is, and that’s quite an eye opener itself! =D

And to end this post, *clears throat*

Three cheers and three cheers and three cheers for ice cream!
Hip hip, hurray!
Hip hip, hurrr-ay!
Hip hip? HURRAY!

…

*Ahem*

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH~
(bet you thought I was going to miss out on the scream hahaha) =D

Updating!

Just some things I’d like to say about my life right now:

#1. It’s the holidays, and I’ve gotten a taste of what it’s like to feel like sleeping too much really isn’t a sin. I mean, I spend many hours a day just sleeping, and it feels great!

#2. I’m still affected by what happened regarding lit trip – few people know exactly how much I was/am affected by it, and even fewer know why. I’m trying to push myself to get over it, but it’s difficult. I will manage to, eventually. I miss Lena and Kevy alot, and it’s Kevy’s birthday tomorrow… and I’m feeling rather panicky because I’ve no idea how to wish her!!! I can’t contact them and they don’t seem to have internet there. The teachers lied!!! ):::

#3. I’m planning a surprise for Kevy when she comes back from the UK but she won’t know about this unless she gets internet connection – which isn’t very likely anyway hahaha. Woopsy Daisy! =D

#4. Something’s been crawling at the back of my head telling me I should do something about it, but I’m so unwilling, and I really don’t want to have anything to do with people like that (not all, but the majority). It’s so complicated. =/ It’s not prejudice, it’s just fear that’s hard to describe.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

(Because we all scream for icecream! XD)

#5. I thank the world for the existence of Ben and Jerry’s (you should totally check the site out. It’s neat! =D) because they produce the most delicious tasting icecream in the world (at a much more affordable price than stuck up expensive brands which sell a scoop at $5 -_-)! They are so creative! Can you imagine waking up one day in your mid 20s and you turn to your mom (you still live with your mom. Aha.) and say ‘Mum. I’m going to make icecream for a living.’ and after a few years of experimenting, you produce the sweetest taste the world’s ever tasted! You’re an icecream chef, and you get to eat your own stuff everyday!!! o.o AWESOME.

#6. Feng and I have rekindled our passion for finishing tubs of B&J after 9pm, a tub a day. =D AHH MY TUMMY IS I’M TURNING INTO MUSH! … Oh well. Haha. =) At least it happifies me. XD

#7. Feng’s house is now my regular hang out! We’re going on a mugging spree tomorrow. I plan on touching Econs, and I think he’ll do some Chem. He says that he’s going to bring me to drink Turtle Soup sometime soon. It’s like $13 for a bowl of turtle soup and yam rice. A part of me doesn’t want to drink it because it just sounds rather barbaric, but it’s the same concept as eating chicken, isn’t it? He says it tastes like chicken anyway. I’m a little creeped out though. =/ Ahhhhh feng howwwwwwwwwwww?

#8. I’m bringing a whole load of games/DVD over to his place tomorrow – I have second thoughts about completing revision hahaha. Ah well, I should learn to prioritize. =D

Have you eaten your happy pill today?

Don’t need one! XD

#9. I’ve been in quite a good mood for the past few days, well, for most of the time until I get reminded of unhappy things. =/ But hurray at least I’m growing stronger as an individual, and my pillar of strength is growing with me too. =)

#10. I’ve been staying up with Feng for the past week, and somehow it’s been more fulfilling than sleeping the hours before midnight away. The night’s just so young and perhaps it’s because I miss his presence so easily. Strange. We see each other very, very often, but I still miss you so much all the time you’re gone. I’m thankful though, we’re 20mins away from each other.

Ahhh, bear hug! -Snugglezzz-

#11. I miss my friends. I miss friends like jiayi, yenyen, yityng, brenda, kevy, lena, chen, oce, claire, elaine, xin ping, zheng ning, pei ting, dean… and many others. If your name’s not here it doesn’t mean I don’t miss you, you know that. (:

#12. I want to go shopping tomorrow and fill up a big bag with purchases. =D

Oops. That’s a little wittle too biiiiiiggggg, ooomphhh. ><

Oh but it’s late I think I’ll stop blogging here before I overwhelm myself heehee, goodnight. I hope the days have been well for you. =)

Magical Kisses

with lips pursed slightly, emitting that smacking sound in an expression of love; affection.

Are you the type who gets tickled so badly when you see a child blow a kiss towards you? Are you also the type who gets tickled when you see a child frown/cry/laugh after someone’s tried smooching them? ^^

I definitely am. =)

‘So Cuuttttteeeeeeeee!!!’

XD

To be kissed by the breeze, to be nosed by a penguin, to kiss passionately, to kiss goodbye, to kiss gently, to kiss off, to blow a kiss, to express a feeling or a thought, a small piece of chocolate candy, a brand name, a light glancing touch, a lipstick kiss, a shower of kisses, kissing in the rain. However it is expressed, a kiss will always be directed at someone else. =)

Everytime little children hear the mention of this word, they shriek and cringe and cry out loud ‘Ew! That’s so disgusting!’ or produce a loud dragged ‘Ewwwyyyy…’, feeling strongly towards their opinion of the action. I always chuckle and smile back at them, and then I say ‘It’s not disgusting what!’ but they’re stubborn, and insists that they’re right. Someone I know decided to rebut them by saying ‘Next time when I see you kissing someone else, I will say that it’s disgusting too! Hmph!’ and that keeps them quiet most of the time. =)

They don’t realize that they’re contradicting themselves as they kiss their parents goodnight or when they kiss their parent’s cheeks when prompted to do so. It’s just so adorable how unaware they can be. =D Wouldn’t you agree?

As we grow up, we realize many new things. We learn to accept new ways of expressing our feelings towars others and become more comfortable with expressing ourselves. It is true that we learn more with age, and we all learn to value our own opinions – becoming more liberal.

Just some pictures which I found so irresistable. Thank you Getty Images. =) 

A kiss can set you fire, set your heart pacing a bullet train. It can make you crave for more, or just be satisfied with one. A kiss, given by the right person, at a right time, could brighten your mood and perhaps even make your day. To me, a kiss from a child is with the purest of emotions, and the thought of that just makes me light up inside completely. Kisses are such magical things.

It’s true, you know? You never know when a kiss can touch you the right way, and send you straight up to…

…Heaven. ^^

Cherish<3

What if you wake up one day to find that your love ones have been hurt or injured? What if someone who once meant/means the world to you is now lying on the hospital bed recieving treatment and undergoing all those torturous hours of implantations/surgery/medication?

The Sichuan earthquake which happened recently (12th) measured up to 8.0M on the scale. Feng’s been telling me how strong 8.0M is, seeing as how you can’t stand balanced when the scale reaches 6.0M. We all known how disastrous the impact of the attack was, the number of people who died, the number who got injured , the number who were made homeless. It’s madness, in a matter of minutes, buildings collapse, wires snaps, pipes are disengaged and so on – the amount of damage done in such a short amount of time is something I cannot imagine with my own eyes.

I don’t ever want to experience what it’d be like – to see things collapse, not just buildings but people collapsing as well, to hear screams I’d never forget, to see the same terrified expressions reflected on everyone’s faces. That sense of helplessness, distress and crazed panic. I don’t know what it feels like, I really don’t want to feel that kind of emotion. It scares me to the bone.

What I’m really afraid of feeling is the pain in your chest when you see a loved one injured from a disaster, and the minutes they have left are ticking away faster than the beating in your chest. I don’t know what it feels like, but I’m going to try to understand what it’d be like. That fear which seizes you at your throat – you want to say “don’t hurt, …be strong” but you’re choking on your own tears. You look around you and everyone’s on their knees, begging the heavens to stop it’s massive destruction. You want to hold onto this hand again, to feel the warmth you once took for granted, but you time is up, and it’s time to give in to this vicious cycle. Gone. The feeling which engulfs you is different from that when your loved one is facing an illness, or is it the same? … Given the conditions the people living in Sichuan were facing then, I guess many are better off standing beside a hospital bed, than on the ‘battle field’. This war is between God and Men/ Nature and Men, maybe that’s why it’s just so inhumane.

I don’t know how much sadness I’ve felt (it’s difficult to measure exactly), but I know that the victims from this disaster, and their loved ones, have had an extremely difficult time struggling through this short period. Compared to me, the survivors are much stronger, having the willpower to press on for their own lives. We ought to learn from them.

Though I could write an entire essay on emotions etc, I ought to stop here. I just wanted to tell everyone who comes here that we have to learn to cherish those around us – even if they aren’t the closest friends/people to us, or the most important, we should still cherish their presence, because their presence in our world has changed us (whether in a big or small way), and we should be thankful that they’ve played a part in our chapter, however significant.

It’s also important you tell each other how important they are to you in your life- all the while, and not just for today, or for the moment at hand, but all the while, just so they’ll know it, all the while. When you’re awake, when you eat, when you’re showering, when you’re right next to them… saying it anytime is perfect, and saying it when you mean it can really touch someone’s heart so amazingly. You never know what you’re capable of doing until you try/do, and you should never doubt your ability to care, and love. We’re all small people, capable of doing amazing things.

—
To the people who have been feeling upset, I hope you find your happiness soon. Even if it’s just a sip of caramel frap from star bucks, or a funny movie that makes you laugh until your tummy hurts, I hope these little things which happen through the day can allow you to feel happier and satisfied.

To those who haven’t been talking to your parents enough, show them how much they mean to you, like you can send your mom/dad an sms tomorrow. It can be as simple as “Don’t miss me when I’m gone, pa!” or “I’m coming home earlier tonight, Ma!”. You never know how you can make them feel so much more self importance, and that can be so fulfilling.

To those who have seemed to lost your sense of direction, stop thinking ‘I should..’, ‘I would..’, ‘I could…’. Start thinking ‘I shall!’, ‘I WILL!’, and ‘I CAN!’ because you won’t know until you give it a shot, yes? Take a leap of faith, and fly skywards. You know you can.

To those who are overseas right now, please take care of yourselves! I miss you all.

To those who feel far from God, pray.

And to feng who made my day today, …

Heeheehee, I know it’s such an anti climax.

Just wanted to say that i… love you.

=)

You’ll Always Be My Baby

Even though I’m a bigger fan of Archuleta’s honeyed tones, Cook’s raspy voice really puts the mood right for this song. It’s quite heartwrenching, but that feelings only temporary until the song ends, and I’m thankful for that because I don’t want to be sober after listening to it.

It’s more romantic than saddening to me – am I feeling it the wrong way? >< I mean, after he leaves, she still holds on to that memory and his presence lingers on in her heart. It’s sweet how she believes he will one day return back into her arms, it’s like keeping hope that he’ll love her all over again. Time can’t erase a feeling this strong… No way you’re ever gonna shake me… Oh darling ’cause you’ll always be my baby. This feeling so certain, so strong. How amazing. The girl’s so strong. =)

Anyway, it’s good, so do have a listen. =)

David Cook – Always be my baby

lyrics:

We were as one babe
For a moment in time
And it seemed everlasting
That you would always be mine
Now you want to be free
So I’ll let you fly
‘Cause I know in my heart babe
Our love will never die no

Chorus
You’ll always be a part of me
I’m part of your indefinitely
Boy don’t you know you can’t escape me
Ooh darling ’cause you’ll always be my baby
And we’ll linger on
Time can’t erase a feeling this strong
No way you’re ever gonna shake me
Oh darling ’cause you’ll always be my baby

I ain’t gonna cry no
And i won’t beg you to stay
If you’re determined to leave boy
I will not stand in your way
But inevitably, you’ll be back again
‘Cause you know in your heart babe
Our love will never end no, no

Chorus

I know that you’ll be back boy
When your days and your nights get a little bit colder oh
I know that you’ll be right back baby
Oh baby believe me it’s only a matter of time

—

GAH. So. Romantic!!! ><

I’m not doing Archuleta (his surname’s so nice haha) any justice – he’s always been a great singing talent all his life! I found videos of him auditioning on a show when he was much younger, and you can see how he’s always sang so well. Oh, and he shed some pounds growing up too haha =). He’s only 16 – freaks outs – haha he’s so young he’s younger than me T_T.

When he was much (I mean, much, much) younger:

You’re All I Need – Junior singing finals

A Moment Like This – recording

Teen hood:

A Thousand Miles on the piano!

Cool!

There are plenty of videos, but I can’t post everything =/. Another two songs I really want to leave you with, his performance in high school (I think), and… Heaven.

David Archuleta - I’ll Be (Alot of cheering, hope you can take it haha =))

lyrics:

The strands in your eyes that color them wonderful
Stop me and steal my breath
Emeralds from mountains thrust toward the sky
Never revealing their depth
Tell me that we belong together
Dress it up with the trappings of love
I’ll be captivated
I’ll hang from your lips
Instead of the gallows of heartache that hang from above

[Chorus:]
I’ll be your crying shoulder
I’ll be love suicide
I’ll be better when I’m older
I’ll be the greatest fan of your life

Rain falls angry on the tin roof
As we lie awake in my bed
You’re my survival, you’re my living proof
My love is alive not dead
Tell me that we belong together
Dress it up with the trappings of love
I’ll be captivated I’ll hang from your lips
Instead of the gallows of heartache, that hang from above

[Chorus]

I’ve been dropped out, burned up, fought my way back from the dead
Tuned in, turned on, Remembered the things that you said
—

David Archuleta – Heaven

lyrics:
Oh – thinkin’ about all our younger years
There was only you and me
We were young and wild and free

Now nothin’ can take you away from me
We bin down that road before
But that’s over now
You keep me comin’ back for more

Baby you’re all that I want
When you’re lyin’ here in my arms
I’m findin’ it hard to believe
We’re in heaven
And love is all that I need
And I found it there in your heart
It isn’t too hard to see
We’re in heaven
—

It’s so short, but so sweet. -cringe-

Off to Alujunied. =)

Pigs, bah! xD

Brought feng to get his arm checked at the clinic near his place today, and turns out it’s some bug bite which grew into a monsterous red patch over a matter of days. It’s healing better now, with the help of some powder and pills. =)

Ah, I suddenly feel so relieved. =D

AHH~

We went to eat KFC today, and shared Feast A, which consists of 8 pieces of chicken, 1 large whipped potato, 1 cheese fries, 1 popcorn chicken and ordered an extra medium coke. I still can’t believe that we finished everything, and what I’ll never come to terms with is that I ate the same amount that he did! =D Gosh I’m such a glutten, I should congratulate myself! But the whole thing was really funny, and it took us like 3mins to decide if we wanted it. It was my suggestion hahahahahaaa ><

At least there’s a free KFC mug to take back to his place. =D

And then guess what happened next?

We both fell asleep when we returned hahaha! >< I can’t believe we’re such pigs. T_T It’s so strange, but just as we got to know more about each other at the start of the year, we exchanged nicknames and they all revolved around being a pig, sleeping like one, eating like one etc, and it’s true. -_- Oh gosh.

Oh goodness gracious me. T_T I’m turning into a pig.

Anyway we slept til dinner time. And then we ate somemore. I didn’t eat so much fried rice but feng has the appetite like… an ant. =D Don’t you know that ants eat alot, okayyyy? Hahaha okay who am I kidding he really eats alot, I mean, he was talking about supper after dinner… who eats a Feast at 3pm and then wants dinner and supper? Who?! Him!!! O_O

Came home at 11, again. and got shot down by mama, before I showered. Aww. =/

Girls in the UK, Jia misses you all so much!!! >=( Never email me!!! Just wait til you come home HMPHHHH =(( I shall make all of you starve and not share my delicious recipes with you haha =D Joking joking. Dears, if you’re reading this, I’m planning on a party when you come home. Haha. Incase you’re wondering what kind of party it’ll be… it’s going to be a

FOOD PARTY.

*Throws confetti*

What? My world doesn’t just revolve around cooking, eating and food in general you know!

It revolves around Feng too. >///< Hee.

Goodnight sayonara wan an sleep tight don’t let no bed buggies bite! =D

Edit: I’ve been meaning to post these photos taken the other day!

Presenting Liting! Feng’s youngest cousin. =)

Cute round ball radiating energy!!! =D

Peace Panda Buns

Taken from the BreadTalk site. All proceeds from the sale will go to helping the Sichuan Earthquake victims.

It’s yummy, at least in my opinion. >< And the pandas are orange. Orange!!!

Mouth wide open o: (I ate this one)

Confused S:

Cheeky o; (I ate this one too)

Sad ):

Why isn’t there a happy one…

I remembered eating 2 of these cute little panda buns 2 weeks ago when Mum bought three of them home. I finished them at 11pm and slept immediately after. That’s so piggy of me. -_-Just goes to show how irresistably yummy dou sa is. Go buy one for yourself =) !

Many people are suffering out there, and it’s hard to imagine the emotional or physical pain they’re going through. I want to do my part some other way besides just buying PPBuns.

50 in the morning

Rise and shine, beautiful.

Simply adore how the light hits the petals and makes them so semi translucent.

1. What are your siblings MIDDLE names?
They don’t have middle names unless you count jia to be a middle name hahaha we’re all Ang-Jia-somethings. =D
2. Where is your dad right now?
In China!
3. What was the last thing you said?
‘Yeah that one republic guy shouldn’t have interrupted archuletta’ Oops but I do that think David pulls off Apologise much better than the favourites. =D
4. What is something you’ve learned about yourself recently?
I can’t prioritize for nuts, and I love to cook = no work done.
5. What color is your watch?
I don’t wear a watch, but I got a Baby Blue baby-g from Dad during my 12th birthday
6. What do you think of when you think of Australia?
Baby Koalas, Kangaroos and Crocodiles
7. When was the last time you squatted to pee?
Hahaha I was so tempted to delete this question! It’s so ajkfdjkjdsiu! Erm, a month ago, hahahaha!
8. Who is the last person you liked?
I have the capability to like alot of people hee =)
9. Are you close to your mom?
Wouldn’t say that
10. Where does your best friend work?
Doesn’t work yet!
11. What is your least attractive feature?
My fingernails? T_T
12. What color are your pants?
White!
13.Do you have a roommate?
Plenty but they’re always so quiet. I’ve got like mountains of plushies. =P
14.Do you prefer paper or plastic?
Paper. I like the tearing sound, and the sound when a pencil tip brushes across it ever so gently. That scratchy noise makes me feel … fragile sometimes hmm. Strange, right?
15. What color is your bedroom flooring?
It’s wood! Orange, brown, yellow.
16. Do you have a chair in your room?
Two roller chairs. Hee my favourites. =)
17. What time of day were you born?
Midnight hahahahaha poor mummy haha
18. Do you know anyone engaged?
Me!!! Me!!! No I won’t say I do haha =D
19. What’s your favorite number?
I’ve always liked 1 and 2.
20. Do you know anyone named Laurie?
No!
21. What color is your mom’s hair?
Dark black
22. Do you have a dog?
A beagle named silverous!
23. Where did you live in 1987?
No where I wasn’t even created. XD
24. What happened to you in 1993?
I celebrated my second birthday. =)
25. Does your first memory involve your dad?
No but it involves my mom.
26. Do you remember singing any songs as kids?
Twinkle…
twinkle? hahahaha!
27. When was the last time you went swimming?
a month ago.
28. Has your luggage ever got lost?
NO! Yesssss : )
29. When was the last time you talked to one of your siblings?
10 mins ago. =/
30. Did you ever go to camp as a kid?
Yes it was always made compulsory -_-
31. Do you play an instrument?
Drums.
32. Have you ever thought it would be cool to smash a guitar?
No. What a waste of money…
33. Do you like fire?
YES IT’S SO PRETTY!!! I hope I don’t regret saying this. =/
35. Are you allergic to anything?
Horlics?
36. When was the last time you cried?
Yesterday while I was pouring my heart out to Feng
37. What kind of shampoo do you use?
Depends on where I shower, which is like, everywhere, anywhere… with proper pipe system and shower hose la.
38. Have you ever been to a spa?
Yes. Traumatizing.
39. Were you popular in high school?
I don’t know.
40. Did you take science all four years of high school?
Haha aiyaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
41. Do you like butterflies?
Very much.
42. What is the last book you read?
Fragile by Niki Shisler
43. Do you like Coke or Pepsi more?
I detest Coke hee, but I don’t really like softdrinks.
44. What is one thing you miss about your past?
My hyperactiveness – still have some of it – but not everything.
45. Did you ever see the school nurse?
Ah?
46. Have you ever wanted to be a teacher?
Never.
47. What is one thing you’ve learned about life?
We’re all humans in the end, still capable of feeling so much
48. Are you jealous of anyone?
I’m currently quite jealous that Mei gets to go shopping with mom. >=/ *Turns into a green-eyed monster radiating steam*
49. Is anyone jealous of you?
I shouldn’t mention it here right?
50. When was the last time you were in an elevator?
Yesterday when I was at J8

Oh gosh. I woke up today morning recovering from a nightmare, and my first thought at that moment was just you.

Edit: Just came home from Feng’s place, again.=) The Roti Prata was very nice, haha, I think I’m craving for somemore. It’s nice to always spend entire days with you, it helps me to heal from problems and the little bouts of unhappiness I still feel regarding the trip. It’s like having someone to protect you, you know? To fend off all your worries and to kiss the pain away. It’s so magically addictive, I don’t ever want to leave your side even for one night. You’re so attractive, do you know that?…

We really do share alot with each other, and I feel really comforted to know that we are both willing to depend on one another in times of need. I’ve grown to know even more about you, and somethings are just so adorable to realize! Haha, makes me want to snuggle under the blanket and just stare at you sleep.

Awwwww, that’d be real cute heeeee><

Ahem haha… Seeing as how things have been, tomorrow will be a good day too. =) Thank you so much, my love. <3

Silverous

Tread with caution… you never know when you meet one of these… creatures.

They can be … so… dangerously…

ADORABLE !!!

=DD !!!

fooled you. NYEH NYEH. XD

*Hyperventilates*

Not to mention difficult to manage. *Cough*

I know I’ve never mentioned her, but I guess there’s always a start to something new. Presenting, Silverous, my beloved killing machine puppy. =D

Introductions require good, warm handshakes. I was trying to pull her closer to the camera because she was being shy, but she kept using her left paw to push my hand away, before running off into the bushes and staring at me from the distance. -_-

Managed to take a few photographs of her when she wasn’t feeling so hyper the other day. It’s so rare to see her so calm and composed, she must have been tired. So now you know she’s a female, and she’s about 35 dog years old. That’s still pretty young – she runs alot, barks alot, eats alot and sleeps alot. She doesn’t play much, and she used to be much more overweight. She’s slimmer now. XD

She’s cute, and very, very naughty! >< She’s always up to something when she bolts across the garden. She likes the bushes, the soil, the mud and the pebbles. She’s tried to swallow one before, but failed terribly. She’s never tried another attempt since. XD Heehaw, Silver’s really quite alot to manage. T_T

But when she cuddles up next to you, and licks your fingers/toes so gently and lovingly, she’s really quite a sweet heart. ^^

She’s fast asleep right now, on her back. =) Soooo cuteeeee hahahaha…

A new camera and you =D

I’m getting a new camera soon, because the Kodak’s left me for a better place. XD Well, it really wasn’t her fault, I mean, maybe I’ve been too pressurizing and demanding that I broke her. I mean, literally, because her screen fell off completely when I turned it on the other day. Poor Kodakky.=// I had initially hoped to trade it in for a sony/canon, but I think Dad will just prefer me to get a new one, so that’s settled then. =S

Can’t wait. Resolution heehee. XD

I really enjoy taking photographs, and I’ve this strange attraction towards flower photography. It’s not plant or nature photography, but flower photography. =/ The photos I posted in the posted in ‘Holiday’ inspire me to want to take more photographs -somehow I find comfort in looking at beautiful pictures of flowers. =D It also makes me happy to know that I can share these photos with others, and they find comfort too, and that’s satisfying and makes everything worth while.

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I haven’t managed to catch a shot of the tall bougainvillea tree! I suspect bougainvilleas are actually climbers so they climbed all the way to the top of the tree. I will get a shot of it some day. I shall dream of it til then! XD

Spent the day with Feng. =D *Gasp* Had tuition before that and Mrs.Chan said something nice about me which kind of made my day. *Blush*

We caught What Happens In Vegas and I simply love the movie! I am NEVER going to Vegas for a breather, ever, if I’m stressed from work etc because somebody wouldn’t like it. =) I must be a good girl and stay home and cook meals and feed them to him. =D I’d be more than willing to, anyway.

If you grow chubby eating, I wouldn’t mind one bit because you’d be growing on the food I prepare for you. That’s just so satisfying to me. =] It really pleased me that you really liked the three dishes I prepared in different occasions, looks like our tastebuds complement. =)))

BIG NEWS! I am going to catch Adam Sandler’s new film when it’s out, he’s simply the greatest actor in the world – so hilarious, sarcastic and jaw-dropping all at the same time. The accent he picked up for the new show tickles me so bad!!! XD heehaw, I have to thank Daddy for introducing Water Boy to me a few years back when A.S. really left that bone deep impression on me. Can’t wait (!!!).

I’m still healing from the trip issue. Gosh I miss them all so bad. =/

WAAAAAAAAAAA! EMAIL MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE… WAAAAAAAAA~

I realised that I really can’t live without you (too). Thank you for listening to me talk today. It’s nice to lie on your pillow, beside you and just forget the world. It’s the holidays. Take a break, have a kit kat? Grow fat? I don’t care, somehow nothing’s as important as having you beside me (friends you know I miss you too =/ Arg UK’s so far la!!! Do you miss me!!! I bet you do!!! =/). The reassurance, the embraces, well, I demand time to stop!, … I’d want us to stay in each other’s arms for a lifetime. Just stop ticking already (!!!), time’s so annoying. I shall just ask mom to let me stay over again, but I’m afraid she may respond violently against it. Oh well, I am going to give it a shot. >=)

Pillow fight me want. >=D

Photographs

Looking through photographs taken between secondary two to secondary four. I can’t gather my emotions exactly, so I’ll wait til I know what I’m feeling, and then maybe I’ll edit this entry.

These little bits and pieces of things I’ve managed to keep remind me of so much of what used to be, could have been, and has remained unchanging. There is just so much flowing through my head at this instance – I miss that calming silence amidst the noise.

And for all the pain and hurt that I’ve gone through the past months, the past week, I thank whoever and whatever’s watching over me for you. Your presence, the gentleness, this possessive love may just be what I need to keep myself sitting up right. Thank you, so, so much.

Most of us dislike change, but you ought to learn to welcome it. It’s better expecting the unexpected, and if it’s a good change, it’d be a nice surprise. Keep your chin up, because you know there are better days waiting for you.

Waiting for you to shine, beautiful.

Holidays

Today also marks the start of our June Holidays, which will consist of studying, playing, eating and living the life of an experimental cook! =D I will be allowed to experiment with different cooking styles and recipes and hopefully I’ll be able to master the teochew dishes which are unique to my family.

First assignment – purchase an icecream maker!

Second assignment – make icecream!

Third assignment – Find a tester!

I also want to spend more time among greenery and flowers, they really do brighten up my life. I noticed this tall tree (almost 7-8m) covered with bougainvillea (I’ve no idea how they grew til such a height, they aren’t climbers anyway) near the Singapore Bible College just a few days ago. It’s so amazing! I shall go get a shot of it tomorow. =)

This makes me happy.

Happy Holidays!

Postman from the air wing

When I first opened it, I was quite sure I would turn emotional afterwards. As I read more of it, I realized where it was heading, and … I didn’t want to continue. But a letter’s a letter, you have to read it to the end.

I realized that most of the time you don’t realize someone’s worth until they’re missing, and you regret that you never mentioned it to them whenever you missed their presence. It could mean the world to them, and you could have possibly made their day. It’s important to keep in contact with loved ones and family, even if you find yourself filled with other emotions and duties to carry out which rob you of your free time.

We need to sit down to talk some day, but it doesn’t feel like I can dive right back into the past again. I’ve grown up, and so have you, and we’re just two new people now. I’m not saying this to discourage you, I’m just saying that I feel afraid to try to relive the past, because we’ll just be expecting things to work differently.

But know that You’re an important person, you’ve always been, and don’t you ever doubt that. Thank you for visiting, and know that you’re ever so capabled and kind. You’re an amazing person, an amazing brother to me.

At the airport today, I…

So after school ended at 4pm, Feng and I went to J8 to purchase presents, then bussed over to my place to collect the cake, then bussed to his place to shower, then to Aljunied MRT where we took the train to Changi and that’s how we got to the airport by 8.10pm to see everyone off.

Rita was dressed completely in black (what a sexy cat), Lena wore an oversized yellow top which I thought looked quite nice (what!!!) and kevy was in this neon green jacket with her black skinnies (which are so typically her!). We surprised Rita with the cake, gave each other hugs, said hi to a few more people, helped Wenda and Yen to surprise Kevy at the toilet (where I had to act like I just found out my period was coming to have Kevy enter the stinky toilet), said hi to friend’s parents, laughed, loved, missed…

Just moments before they entered the gate, dear pok started to cry. She didn’t look like she’d stop anytime soon, and her head was on my shoulder. I held on to her, I didn’t know what to say. I started crying too. These emotions… so raw and so painful – I didn’t want to leave you, I didn’t want to leave ANY of you. It felt like my heart was getting pulled out of my chest? I could feel myself choking on my tears, I could see you crying right in front of me – was this, my fault? … the way you felt, ‘i’ve never been on a trip without you guys’… I… it hurt, in … a way which was worth hurting. It made me realize how important you/you were to me, and how important I am to you both. I’m never letting this change, ever.

Tonight I sit in this chair at home, far away from the plane you’re riding on. I imagined us to be seated right next to one another, writing notes and sniggering at air stewardesses (don’t judge me) and pervertic men (fine, judge me). My imagination is killing me. The thought of you both leaving… the thought of me … well, like Kevy’s mom said ‘everything happens for a reason, you might not realize it now, but you’ll realize it soon enough.’

I believe she’s right.

May all of you have a safe trip to the UK, have a blast there – spend, eat and live like royalty and come home ready to face the challenges of teenhood. It’ll be an amazing trip – the company, the scenery, the experience … it’s going to be once in a lifetime.

Just knowing that you guys are doing great makes me feel comforted too. I hope you will be happy. =) I hope you don’t cry anymore. Because I won’t, so we’ve got to be strong, …for one another.

Take care of one another for me, alright? Can’t wait to see your happy faces, can’t wait to feel you guys in my arms again. Bring a piece of memory back for me. =)

All that I need – Boyzone

I was lost and alone
Trying to grow making my way down that long winding road
Had no reason no rhyme
Like a song out of time
And there you were standing in front of my eyes

How could I be such a fool
To let go of love and break all the rules
Girl when you walked down that door
Left a hole in my heart
And now I know for sure

Chorus:
You’re the air that I breathe
Girl you’re all that I need
And I wanna thank you, lady
You’re the words that I read
You’re the light that I see
And your love is all that I need

I was searching in vain
Playing a game
Had no-one else but myself left to blame
You came into my world
No diamonds or pearls Just like a castle of sand
Girl, I almost let love slip right out of my hands
And just like a flower needs rain
I will stand by your side through the joy and the pain

Repeat Chorus X2

You’re all that I need, girl
You’re the air that I breathe, yeah
And I want to thank you
(And I want to thank you, lady)

You’re the words that I read, girl
You’re love is all I need, yeah
And I want to thank you
(And I want to thank you, lady)

You’re all that I need, girl
You’re the air that I breathe, yeah
And I want to thank you..
—

Feng was playing this on his phone just now before we caught the last 154 back home. Really, really romantic (maybe because they use the word ‘lady’ which really hits me), so go listen. You could dedicate it to a really special friend too. =)

I miss so many people omgfdsapoiuuyrewwq!!!