Again, again!

Just deleted 2 posts. I don’t know if that was the right thing to do (writing/deleting them). I just want to say that others should stop talking bad about others because it’s just not right. Expecting people to keep what you told them private would be foolish, because if they cared about the person you were talking about, they would tell her that you said things like that, so it isn’t their fault – it’s yours, if you were the one who decided to bad mouth her. I know what you told them about me – everything. I’m hurt after realizing that history repeated itself, and even more after I decided to put everything behind us. Why can’t you do the same?

Well, enough of that. I’m the distraction that’s causing him from concentrating. ): S

I think that love is an amazing thing. I mean, it crushes you sometimes, completely, and other times it just makes you feel so glad, you know? I mean love as in love for people, friends and lovers. It’s amazing! It is. Don’t ever give up on love. Don’t say that long-term relationships are impossible, and that friendships don’t always last, don’t give up loving.

‘I want you ):’

Somehow, as much as I want to be glad that I’m on his mind, a part of me wishes he’d stop thinking and finish econs homework. ): This is such a dilemma. Going off now, goodnight friends. (:

Huggie

You’ve already been wounded once… it’s about time I took you home and nursed you back into the pink of health. I’d be lying if I said that I’d bear to see you struggle just because I know you’d pull through… it’s not that easy… for anyone.

solitude is not the answer, it will not bring you answers
why not instead, dear girl, run!
run! -

- into my arms…
let me be your guardian for just a day
as we dip our feet in the pool, relaxing
forgetting, remembering, healing,
just for one day, my friend

you’ve got me, remember? Because whenever I’m down and lonely, I remember that I’ve got you, even if you’re not right beside me at that moment. I can imagine your arms around… your voice travelling about, i know that you wouldn’t replace me with anything in the world.

River of happiness

- Taken at the pool side (those who’ve been into the pool, you’ll probably know where exactly), pretty glistening H2O. (:

1.
You who bring sunshine to my life

should not keep it from yourself
Time after time, after sun down
as I hold your face gently in the palm of my hands
I wouldn’t let go, ever, if not for home – you already know that
i will promise you, again,
I will never let this happiness run dry, I will never let this happiness run dry,

never, never ever.

I would stay awake… just to hear you breathing. How appropriate. (:

2.
Somewhere a river of happiness flows
We’ll sit on its banks while the warm breezes blow
Somewhere there’s a garden where only love grows
Somewhere a river of happiness flows
Dry your eyes, don’t cry no more
We’ll find a place where there’s laughter and joy
So take my hand and don’t let go
Come with me and together we’ll go
We’ll walk in the sunshine
We’ll laugh and we’ll sing
And dance to the tune that our happiness brings
Come go with me to this place i speak of
Together, we’ll find it, this place is called love
- Dolly Parton

And this is to my friends, who mean the world to me. Your skies may seem grey, but the clouds will clear soon, dears.

Oh look, it’s ‘Xio Ba Zhang!’

What’s small, white and soft? …

Zheng feng! Haha he’s going to tickle me for this… ^^

Took photos with my xio ba zhang II because the ink wouldn’t stay on the balloon surface. I thought it would dry but it didn’t, and I keep rubbing it off accidentally when I play with it. Guess who he resembles? ^-^ It’s a pretty easy guess huh! Thank you MT for the little ball of flour (which inspired me to bake some more /_\), it has been a cute little distraction during class time.

I don’t think I’ll be blogging again anytime soon. (: Til the next time, take care friends!

-Peeks-

… hey. (:

So it’s been awhile, again. When I don’t blog, it also means I don’t use MSN, and last time I used to feel so disconnected, but that’s a matter of the past now. Queer.  Somehow the internet has been reduced to a provision of art references, photographs, and visiting the few livejournal/xanga blogs of friends. PW Articles are possibly the only documents I open now adays with the computer – will have to start opening more to make notes for Promos (!). I think I am no longer a com-addict. Surprise, surprise? =)

I got my bags pack baby and I’m ready to go
I got my heart rock steady and I promise you more!
- I promise to attach the some + lyrics here someday

So exciting! Da~ Da~ Da~ Da~ DA DA DA~
I love this song!

Oh, where was I? =) Promos. I don’t want to look back and regret that I could have worked harder and gotten better results. I’d be lying if I said results didn’t matter to me. I’m not as competitive as some (I find them annoyingly over ambitious and unnecessary)，but I also want to do moderately well. At least good enough for myself. We must work hard, okay? =3

Today was a nice, cold day. It wasn’t cold the extent where my joints begin to ache and my hair stood on ends, so thank god for that. I fell asleep on his golden matress for something like 3 hours today, and snored. He didn’t wake me up, and only told me when I woke. The surprising thing was that I wasn’t embarrassed at all… … I’ve seen you snore plenty of times in your sleep too =P …Well, okay, FINE. I was okay? I’m still embarassed! Haha, Aiyaaaaa. /_\ I deserved some good sleep anyway!

Stephon Toh is our new CT.

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Yes, you read that correctly. =P He’s nice! I wish he were more spontaneous though, but I’m okay with him.

Mrs Tui is leaving. =’( She has a fiery temper, and thin eyebrows which make her look even more scary when she’s mad, but she was a responsible, helpful and perhaps a little too caring (towards me). I don’t know about the rest, but she really cared alot alot alot, and she helped me tons in many ways I can never repay. You know how sometimes students judge their teachers before they got to know them better? That was what I did at first, predicting her mood swings and tempers until I realized she only behaved the way she did because she felt it was appropriate, and we’d get the message. Even though I disliked getting scolded for being the last one (one too many times) to enter civics lessons on tuesdays, or for not handing in my work on time/doing lousy work, I don’t dislike her. She’s actually pretty cool, too.

Just uploaded some photographs on facebook. They make my heart smile rainbows. (: Haha, I don’t usually type like that, but they really do. I need a photograph of Kevy now! Kevy! Kevy! Kevy!

Going to complete my individual EOM now, find some reference for art, and then call my xio ba zhang and then eat him up as a snack before midnight before hitting the pillows! (: ARM ARM ARM.

把你通通吃掉！(:

White spots

Still can’t stop thinking about yesterday. I must have weighed like a ton huh, but thank you for your strong arms that carried me. (: First time actually feeling like I’m flying since… a long time ago. And thank you both for everything. I was behaviing like a drunk zombie I think, I don’t remember much. I only remember her going ‘take care jia!’ and then the taxi door slams, and later I’m pushing myself towards my door step, and then looking back I see him waving. Next thing I remember was telling mum something, and then falling asleep, and only waking up at 9am proper just now. Thanks for the sms and the phonecalls, I might even get to see everyone in school later.

You know, there’s always this fear of going back to school on a day you’ve missed lessons. As in, I plan on going back to school in pe and fbts, but somehow everytime I do that I just become very noticable, and I’m afraid that my CT catches me. As in, it’s not punishable to go back to school, it’s just the awkwardness when you tell her that ‘Oh, I’m better already.’ and then she asks you why not just stay at home? And then you say ‘I came to collect my art.’ and then she would question you if you were really feeling sick at all. And that’s when you have to say ‘yes’ and face her doubtful, questioning eyes. I don’t like being asked whether or not I’m really sick, I mean, … can’t you tell already?

Going to make EZlink later with him…

I want to fork out 100+ dollars to buy somebody something, but that somebody won’t allow me to. But it’s important, necessary and useful! WHYYYYYYY NOOOTTTTT~

And if you’re wondering, I’m having cramps now, so I’m not really that happy. But… minus the cramps and I’d be grinning inside. Don’t know… what happened yesterday really showed that you guys love me alot, and yeah, I love you two too.

I am one lucky girl, huh?

So much you can’t contain

Some people never fail to amaze me. They are so soulful, kind, tolerant and just so loving! It’s amazing because you don’t find many who can love the way they do.

It’s not even about showing care or concern to someone sick or injured, or lending a hand to somone in need of help. It’s not that simple. Its also not about how they show care and concern to anyone whom they approach. See, it’s not that simple!

It’s the way they care that makes the difference. So sincere, so sensitive. it’s like they give their fullest attention to you all the time/whatever the situation, and it doesn’t matter where you stand in their life. They just treat you, and everyone else the same way – putting you before themself, selflessly. It just never fails to amaze me.

We are surrounded by angels, my friends. (:

Tinky Winky! Dipsy! Lala! POO. ^^

I haven’t been blogging regularly! Do you know what that means? It means that my life’s gotten back on track, and blogging is no longer one of my life’s top priorities haha =/. Gasp. Boo, I know, poor bonbon. =( But I’m not deserting her yet, I just haven’t found the need to blog regularly. The people who are most concerned about me know everything that’s been going on, so … there just isn’t a need to blog lor haha. =)

Oh!!! But I want to post up pictures of new hand-made accessories. Ahaha, an auntie from church is super pro, and I improvise from her work! It’s really cool, I think making hand-made items like jewellery, keychains, finger puppets or many other things serve to be a form of relaxation. Plus, they get you all inspired to do arty things and after that you feel this great sense of achievement when you know you’ve completed a good piece from scratch. =) Oolaalaa!

Is it true that girls are better with their fingers? No! Hee. Why are guys so afraid of making pretty things?…

Oh!!! I have yet to bake again, so I don’t think I’ll be baking until next weekend/or wednesday maybe. I am psyched! I want to invite girls over to bake. Aha, you’re not allowed to reject me if I ask you okay! ^^ We can bake from 7-10pm and then we arrive the next day to school with boxes of cheese cakes and fruit tarts. We’ll probably look as though we just got enrolled in culinary school! I want. =(

Ohhhh!!! Dad got me a pair of heels recently. I don’t have many heels, and this one is rather expensive. Haha, he chose it for me. =) Dad has good taste in women’s shoes, I wonder why? xP I’ve only worn it once, which was last saturday when I went out with the girls! I want to wear it again! Heels don’t have to say anything and can be so flattering at the same time.

my shio ba zhang is curled up in bed like a sun-dried baby mushroom. He has been sleeping for something like 2 hours and it’s already past dinner time! Ahh. I’M HUNGRY. I WANT FOOD. =(

But I don’t want to wake him up! =(

SHIO BA ZHANG WAKE UP WAKE UP!!! /_\

你们好！

好多事情一直挂在脑海里
希望说出来不会把你们给淹没
不用为不好的事情担心，
因为一切的不好始终会结束的
要为开心的事情高兴 (:

哪里开始？…

今天比昨天更累！=_= 课室真的好冷，我眼睛好累，胸口很痛。鼻孔被看不见的魔力塞住 ^^”， 好难呼吸…上课的时候也常常会发白日梦。知道让好多老师失望 (/_\)。真得很对不起… 我已经好尽力了…可是怎么好像尽力或没尽力都没两样呢？):…唉，在这种情况时会最希望自己功课好一点，这样大家就不用太为我操心了。抱歉，虽然没把握，可是还是会尽力的。

今天大家都说我比昨天更有精神！哈哈，谢谢你们。今天的我的确是比较开心，好玩。如果刚才讲话太大声而吵到你们，真抱歉！多多指教！(: 哈哈。在最爱你的人/朋友身边时，是一定会开心的嘛…那也应该是自然的。

啊双腿突然好痛。就知道跑来跑去一定会造成待会儿更痛苦。-_- 真活该。

亲爱的朋友们，你们都要坚强！事情很快很快就不会复杂了，一切都会变得很自然。我们是人，都会犯错，不用为未来担心。大家一定要加油，懂吗？我会在身旁的！(:

那么．．．还有你。你好可爱！不要因为这样而害羞。你真的是一个很可爱的男生。今天跟你不断的‘吵架’真的好累哦，不想再‘吵’下去了啦！我好累．．．现在就想躺在床上好好的抱你一直到睡着去。

抱抱！(o ^^)oo(^^ o)

心

身体好累，好酸
好痛苦
连呼吸也有困难
什么东西来的？
烦死人了
感觉好无助

但真的要谢谢你
整天在身边陪我
逼我吃好多有营养的东西（肚子要爆炸了！）
不能吃的你会设法控制
需要吃的你会加多多（救命呀！）
陪我睡觉，陪我休息
帮我拿东西
对我真的好好．．．
如果说没感动是骗你的
真的好怕会拖累你
希望不会那样
真的好爱你哦，我的猪屁股^^

好朋友们都对我好好
好爱我哦，感觉好幸福
嘻嘻　她们都能当妈妈了！

生活总是有好跟不好的事情发生
就算不好的事情发生，也很容易能解决
只要有对的想法，没有办不到的事！
嗯！一定要努力，
一定要加油！

嘉聪加油！(:

Tart Clan Success

Yayyy! Those who got their tarts today liked it alot, alot! Yayyy! This is a good sign that I have an affinity with baking tarts. Will do more soon for those who want some. (: Haha, come get some. (;

I bet none of you knew that I placed little microchips (Yes!) in the tarts which you ate up so happily (Oblivious! Yes!) which allows me to control all of your minds and actions (!!!). Bwahaha! My tart clan plan has succeeded. I will now take over the world with my mind-controlled friends and love(who ate like 9 of the chips =_=). (:

Haha, who am I kidding! xD

Anyway, I want to try making all types of different fruit tarts. It’s a little ambitious, but it’d be worth a shot. But I won’t have any time to do that soon. Oh well! ^^”… It’s also time to try something new! Like mini cheese cakes with sponge cake bottom layer or apricot biscuits or or or (!!!) even home-made icecream.

!!! ^^ＥＫＳＪＤＪＤＨＳＪＨＤ
Haha I’m quite excited. Okay, okay, breathe.

I will be a great pastry chef mum some day. (:

imhwusdbs

(¯`v´¯) says:

imhwusdbs

(¯`v´¯) says:

ok?

`jia says:

whats

`jia says:

imhwusdbs?

(¯`v´¯) says:

im here with u so dun be scared

 

(:
I remind myself, everyday, that I will do this, and listen to your instructions, because it’s better for me in a long run. I’m scared… I always am, but you give me the courage to stand on my feet, and push myself each day.

I will recover, soon.

Wo ai ni ^^!

Erm… ermmmermmmm^#@@!@!#!@!#!~…

ERM!!!

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Ah~ …

Erm. !!!

ahhahahahahaahha….

ahha…

ah…ha…

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I love you! (:

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^^!

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^^

Is that enough? …

It isn’t?!?!?!?!?!? O_O…

…

I guess… I… have… failed you… /_\ …

…

OH!!!

I KNOW WHAT TO DO!!!

… A-ha…

A-ha-ha-HA…

A-HAHAHAHAHA!

Hee. ^^

I told you I was a romantic. ^^

-Satisfied smile-

Okay! Okay! Off to do some work! ^^

-Happily floats away like a ghost from the seventh month-

^^

Look out for me.

Look out for me in school/at Bishan, kay?

=)

This isn’t just taken from the advert screened before movies about some community safety blabla thing in Singapore. Ha-ha-ha. The boy in the advert is cute though, but this is for real.

=)

Don’t be like that J2 guy who ran past me last week and accidentally pushed me down a flight of stairs during the time when my foot was injured. I can’t believe I forgot to mention him. =_= I will remember the blurry image of the back of your head, and that hostile voice which murmured ’sorry!’ as you fled off hurriedly. -_- Toothead. Which reminds me, the seventh month will haunt you…

^^

But anyway!

-Smiles-

I mean it when I say…

Look out for me, even if you don’t know me that well… because you might be a great help to me in the weeks to come. =)

Love…

You can’t take any person, strip him/her naked, look all around/feel all around, ask questions, find out secrets, spend 24/7 with etc, and feel the same familiarity, feelings and comfort that I do towards him. It’s just impossible.

It’s not even about how comfortable I feel sharing everything about myself, giving everything of me, or how he is my biggest pillar of strength, or how I’m affected by everything that affects him, it’s not that, it just isn’t. Arg. That’s just one part, one small tiny portion of how I feel.

That’s what … I never want others to try to understand. I work the way I do because I just can’t bear to… punish myself/him by affording to make any mistakes or have any regrets. I…mean everything I’ve said, not just for the moment, or … for the future. I mean it because I always have meant it, I behave this way simply because that’s all that I know how to be, at least from then, til now.

And I want that to be unchanging.