Guess who’s home?

In a few days I’ve felt as though I’ve been laughed at, by shadows of a mob, standing around me the whole day. Insulting, lashing out at me, and all I had for self protection was well, you. It was comforting, yesterday night, to be able visit, and to lie there watching tv, just us. It felt like I really had someone to stand up for me everytime, and that I didn’t really deserve all of this. I still had reasons to be happy, to fill my mind with happier things, happier people. Love you.

Thanks for helping me out 4 times yesterday, thanks for giving me her number, thanks for talking to me after the lesson ended. It’s like… there’s this sense of connection, like you understand me, but yet not quite because we’re completely different people with different experiences, but then for a moment there I feel like I have a connection with you, and I’m thankful for that.

Summary: I’m not alone, thank God.

Does the class talk about me alot? Because I know things I don’t think many would have wanted me to know about. Not that it was anything bad about me that y’all talked about (i always hope that’s the case), and I know you guys care, but only a few actually show that they care enough to approach me about it. Not that I’m bothered too much about it, or that I dislike it or think anything of the rest of everyone, it’s just that… if you care, let me know. I want to know that you care, because believe it or not, I might not be as close to you as I/you/we wanted, but I do care about you and I don’t think anybody deserves to have problems or face things alone, even if we’re aren’t all saints. It’s always less tormenting when we have each other, yeah?

Biggest, most happening thing today: Lena’s home from cambodia!!! Can’t wait to give her dad a call later, hopefully they’ll both be together so then I can surprise her. =) I hope she doesn’t see this before my PE ends. T_T Oh crap. I MISSED YOU!!! ^^ Hee, like a flower misses its lover. =)

Another weirdo forgot to bring her phone today. =P

I guess it’s okay to get an AE, for now. I’ve set my mind to proving to myself that I can be a better person. I don’t know what you guys think now, I only know that I want to be a better mate, and you have to be ready to accept that. I feel bad, I’m not … made out of stone, and I sometimes find myself much more fluid than many other people (no link), so give me this opportunity, and let me show you what I can do to be different, not just for myself, but for us.

For our A levels.