Elope

如果可以，我一定会让时间停下来… 这样就不用回家了。

要回家的时候，外面下着大雨。我们走到巴士站才发现我把钱包留在你房间。我好笨哦。看你走回家帮我拿钱包被雨淋到，真的好难过好惭愧。

谢谢你啊，宝贝, 好甜蜜！

o(^_^)oo(^_^)o

We’re breaking out of prison 2morrow! ^_^

pwah pwah pwah!

We just got back from watching Disaster Movie! Don’t watch it! Haha, on second thought, watch it, and have a good laugh if you’re a big fan of movies. It’s better to catch it if you caught like every other movie so you can recognize the plots better. =D Feng laughed like crazy la, so cute! Haha, (: oops.

So I met Feng at 7 in the morning and we went to school. He trained and I watched as usual, brings back so many happy memories! Kind of makes me feel shy that I used to hide and peek at him as he trained (heehee secret revealed ahhh /_\) because I didn’t want his team mates to tease us, but after a month of hide and seek, we got used to it, and they were just friendly and welcoming. =) Had a good chat with Jamie about so many random things. It was entertaining! I learnt alot more about her. I won’t reveal anything here. =P Later on Jamie and I joined Claire, Ivy and Andrea to plan for the upcoming art exhibition. And then Feng and I left with his team mates to J8. We ate at Cartel ^^. Yay for ribs, hahaha yay for toasted bread and nice soup! Which reminds me, we owe some people quite a sum of money. We must hurry and pay up! >=/

Forgot to mention I spent quality time with friends yesterday! ^^ It was really quite fun, we ate at this jap spaghetti restaurant at Cine and caught the black swindler (oooo), which I initially thought was the black zinger/swinger/slinger/or something like that! Haha, it’s not that bad but I won’t recommend it to friends who aren’t fans of detective stories. Yay, thank you Chen Lena and friends for the wonderful evening. (: Ohh I also forgot to mention that we caught the F1 race two days ago, and our Ferraris were just disappointing. Well, it’s not Massa’s fault, so, we’ll just have to let things be. Aw. F1 racing is actually pretty cool, but it still isn’t cooler than cooking channels. =P

And as I didn’t sleep a wink at all yesterday, I am extremely sleepy now. AHH. Will retreat to Feng’s room to nap and spy on him play God of War. I’m his cheerleader! -throws confetti- ^_^ Ahaha, he’s about the complete GOW II and that means he completed all levels of GOW and GOW II in about 3 days. WOAH. O_O That’s just… madness. Oh well.

Oh, my dear sweet love! (:

It’s kinda funny how I’m excited about the trip to China, yet seeing how I responded when I couldn’t get to see you at all in a day just makes me so afraid. I wonder if I could bring you with me.

10.

10. Don’t throw it away, keep it, maybe we’ll need it next time. I wonder why people throw almost every single thing away, assuming that they’d never find a need for it, ever.

9. She was right to say during dinner today that it was due to my lack of happy activities that resulted in that little stain in my heart. I tried to wash it away, I did, really, but it’s still stubbornly stained. I think I need a miracle, or a replacement.

8. It’s 4.48 in the morning, the weather is warm, and comforting. I wish it’d rain, so I could convince myself not to go walking at 6. I wouldn’t want mum to worry, but somehow that thought doesn’t bother me so much right now. I wonder if she can hear the television, the music. It’d be really cool if she could hear my thoughts as well, but it won’t be cooler than the rain.

7. Dad’s coming home tomorrow. We’ll be planning for the trip, and I’ll finally have some money to spend on… all sorts of things. I’m not particularly psyched to see him, I don’t dread it either (I mean why should I?), I’m just… you-know, his presence indicates I’ve got to start making solid plans and take action on whatever it is that I have to complete. It kind of brings back the fast paced life I’ve been trying to divert from. Well, maybe I should welcome this with an open mind, then it won’t be so bad. I mean, hey, at least he’s back, you know. Dad’s home.

6. I will be mostly uncontactable from tomorrow onwards until the next time I … decide to be contactable. I know it’s selfish, but I need some space from everything and everyone. I want to have some time just to be alone, to think (again), to realize things, to treasure things, to wonder, to hope to be found again, and completely understood from head to toe. I’m not looking for a miracle, just answers to questions I’ve been too afraid of asking. You can still contact me though the phone in my place, that’s not so bad now is it? I hope my PW mates don’t freak out about the trip or when they realize I haven’t been accessing the phone 24/7.

5. oclock. Off to prepare my bag pack for the day ahead.

I didn’t lie when I said I couldn’t sleep. I wished you could have been there, like I was back then.

(Q_Q…..)………. ……. ……. …… ……

Gryphons

Gryphons had another match today at the basketball club. Feng caringly brought some seafood spaghetti from his place for me, and it was actually really sweet of him to have given me such a surprise (even though I didn’t say this earlier ^^) because I was starving. I ate the clams, prawns and squids in big mouthfuls and got so distracted from the match, but he was being so casual about it and just said ‘no it’s alright, just eat!’ when he got to sit on the bench next to me.

Do you know that you may distract the players just by talking to them midway during the match? I didn’t know til season this year! (= When they’re resting on the bench, stay away from them! Let them concentrate on the game plan and the competitive atmosphere, it helps their performance. ^^ Heeheehee, but I could see you stealing glances at me (!!!) while you sat on the bench even though you had to remind me not to talk to you so much (because I’m talkative and I didn’t/couldn’t stop =_=). You were thinking of me, weren’t you?

o(^_^)o -pleased-

I would post pictures of the matches here, but they all turned out blurry because they moved too swiftly. So, these are what I have when my dear love didn’t move so fast aka when his butt was glued down! =D Yay! *Stalks* Yay! ^^ Ahahahahaaa…

The match at kembangan, during debrief

Me with mougu and zhengcong, feng's calculator, and... =)

=) I’m sorry for being so petty, and so xiao qi all the time. Somehow it’s in my nature to be so! Thank you for tolerating me when I sa jiao, or when I’m just trying to be adorable to grab your attention. I do it all because I’m … I’m… yearning for youuuuuuuuuu. ^^”

Bllllluuuuussssshhhhheeesssss, you-know!!!

I wonder if I bore readers, everyday is about love! Haha, but truly, without it, what are you made of? So do excuse me, and dip yourself into a sack of love, roll around in it, and come out to scare everyone as the ‘love monster’. Bwahaha! Oh my dear love, you are such a luuurrrveeee monzzzttteeeerrrr. (x

The little flying darling

Presenting, the little wonder who loves frolicking about in a house at happy avenue central, singing at the top of her lungs!

Xinyi ^^ the little flying darling.

Haha she was so cute today ah I almost died looking at her jump up and down and up and down repeatedly. It was such a sight (la)!!! =D Feng would locate her everytime he went downstairs and would pick her up to play with her. He would position her in a lying position and let her pretend that she was flying and then zoom zoom zooooommmm off they would gooo!!! ^_^ It was really adorable, both of them. =)

She’s so cute right! =D Haha!

Taught kylie more science today and then a little bit more math, with some of feng’s help. I believe Kylie can do really well for her exams, she just needs to put in a little bit more effort. Taught liting too, she’s a smart child. They’re all smart children.

Oh, I almost forgot to mention! I cooked today, wheee! New dishes with new recipes I came up with and the results were… satisfying! Well, at least feng liked it alot hahaha, it was quite a compliment. =) If I am ever going to set up a restaurant, I want to call it ‘Happy food’ or ‘Yummytummy’ or ‘fooderapy’! It would be so fun! Preparing the homemade potato chips for starters and the mash pea-potato + traffic light capsicum chicken combo was interesting – I never knew they’d go together so well. The fish was prepared in the same way… with new dressing. I love the taste of portabello mushroom with corn in cream sauce! Oh and not to mention summer vegetables to balance all the nutrients. =) I want to bake again! Haha I want to toast things.

I’m so … excited with food. Like I was walking back from grocery shopping in the morning and thinking to myself ‘Jia you’re so obsessed with cooking up new recipes and new things’ and then I realized how much of a food geek I was. And then I felt like a geek, until I realized this was such a blessing. =) You’ll never go hungry when I’m around… that’s why I’m so psyched to hold a party!!! ASAP, I love hosting parties!

Okay, okay I’m really distracted by the phone, gtg. =)

( *o^_^)o  I want hug! -reaches-

( *o^_^)oo(^_^ o)

o(*^_^)(^_^)0

Yaaaaayyyyyay! =DDD

Kylie

Should have brought this up a long time ago! (:

I’m tutoring again! It’s been something like 2-3 years since I’ve last taught a twelve year old, and now history’s repeating itself ! The primary school syllabus has been modified, and they now cover cell division and sexual reproduction too. Like huh???!!! O_O I was so shocked when I found out. I’m teaching Kylie, feng’s cousin. She’s extremely jumpy, noisy, rebellious but somewhat adorable and captivating. I remember part of the conversation we had during the first session some 2 days ago, while she did her papers in green ink:

Me: Eh you know you cannot use green pen to write in the exam right!
Kylie: HUH, cannot meh… then use what colour?
Me: Use black pens to write in examinations!
Kylie: HUH OH NO but I don’t have a black pen!!! -frantically empties contents in pencil case-
Me: Haha you can use the blue pens too!
Kylie: Oh is it, haha YAY! -rejoices-

^^”

She has most of her facts right, just that she has a difficulty putting them down in complete sentences so that’s her weakness. We’re working on that now. We’ve only covered a bit of science so far, and she seems pretty motivated to study and she calls me very often now adays. (: Haha! She’ll be coming earlier to feng’s house tomorrow for the second session before we have the family dinner. She’s so motivated, I’m glad! Wouldn’t you be glad too? (: Feng’s covering chinese and math, and I’m going science and english.

I feel like a parent… Hmm.

It’s a nice feeling. (:

I can’t wait to have my own baby. Honest! But I will wait until the time is ready.

A few more things I’ve planned to do:
- tutor kylie more often
- make accessories. keychains and clothing more often
- eat at places i’ve always wanted to eat at or miss eating at
- write a song (:

Watched feng play a match at kembangan just now with the old RJ boys. He played really well! Heeheehaahaaheeheehee! Of course right! Hahahaha ^^ -shyyy- During the match, he scored his first three pointer and then his coach turned to me and said, ‘that’s why he… that’s what he’s good at, working under pressure. 这个只有他行．’ and after every shot following this, he would turn to me, smirking. I noticed the rest sitting on the bench turning to see my response everytime his ball went through the hoop, and they would smile along with me if I smiled. An old boy even said ＇哇他真的不怕跟大人玩哦’, and then coach said ‘如果怕, 怎么玩呢？’ and it’s true. It’s impressive for a 17 year old to play against a bunch of working adult men in terms of the different levels of experience and skill. But then again, you play so well, it’s pretty amazing. I still can’t believe I didn’t know the capacity of your skills until season.

Okay, off to finish my book. (:

穿越时空爱上你

So promos have come to an end!

-Stretches and yawns- (x

sheng qi sheng qi!!!

Not yet for feng! Haha. =)

Well, … it actually ended on wednesday, after math. I’m probably the only one I know in this school who finished promos yesterday. =P But trust me, you won’t like to be in my spot. /_\ Art and GP on monday followed by Bio and Econs on Tuesday, which … have resulted in this constant nagging in my head that I have flunked Bio, terribly. Arhhhh, what is Mrs Tui going to say? =/ The surprising thing was that I felt Econs was okay, and I didn’t dread it so that’s a relief.

At first I couldn’t believe it because it felt like I still had more papers to sit for, and my mind was still in a rush to panic with all sorts of worries, but now I feel like I’m recovering from this … overdrive. It has been so tiring, my body hasn’t felt so drained of energy in… months! Hahaha, in a way it makes me realize how much I can push myself when I really need to, and also how my preference for certain subjects pushes me to work harder for them. Subjects I prefer? …Art, GP and Econs (strange new passion!!!! No kidding). (:

Cooked dinner for friends and love and delivered it to school. I hope that they really liked it and weren’t just being generous with compliments hahaha. My head isn’t big! There is still much more to learn and much more to experiment on. Tomorrow I will be cooking fish with summer vegetables in thick, potato-puree, ‘gravy’ for lunch delivery. Spot me in school and you might get a free bite! (:

Feng’s last papers ends tomorrow, and that means we can go out to play and have fun (!!!), like we did through out the past few months before all the mugging set in (CTs was just…hahaha). I thank god for this, really. (:

I have already made plans!
- The trip to China accompanied by papa, but I will survive on my own! Coming back with tons of stuff for everyone, so it is a good/bad thing that I’m leaving. (:
- Surprise trip to surprise place with surprise? Just maybe it will happen! =DDD
- Massive COOK OFF (I swear, I swear, I swear!!!)
- Christmas/New Year BBQ Steam Boat party! I want to invite many many many people so that I can dunk them into the pool head first (x Haha only joking!
- Study and revise through out the holidays… pre J2 preparation!
- Watch prison break II with friends, rent more movies and go catch all the movies I want to watch
- Bring feng to see cool new interesting sites (:
- Biennale!!! AHHH!!! Not. To. Be. Missed.
- Buy the new dress and the new shirt and the new shorts and skirts and heels and hairbands and shoes and all sorts of things I want that BANGLE I want earrings!!! *Obsesses* I’ve made an entire list of items I want. Ah but… no, I simply cannot expand my wardrobe any further. T_T
- Eat, sleep and be happy. =)

I know how I should actually be staying in Singapore and spending time with love and friends as much as I can, but the trip to China means alot to me, and this is probably the first time I get to tour and experience something so different. It will definitely be an eye opener. I feel like I need this, and when I come back, I can learn to be someone different, even if I’m different by… a teeny weeny bit. I mean, I WILL come back with certain takeaways from the trip, and somehow a part of me believes in how distance really does make the heart grow fonder, so… yeah! ^^ I will come back with jewels and beautiful experiences and purchases to share with everyone anyway.

(:::

I’m glad that we talked about this, and Feng thinks it’s good that I go too, and reassured me that he would miss me terribly (haha… (:), and that perhaps this experience will just prepare us for any situations next time when he has to leave or i have to leave each other’s side for a certain amount of time, against our wishes. I still remember his march trip to malaysia and my class camp. I know what you’re thinking… both are just 4-5 days! Yes, but… no one’s seen how much we ‘die’ without each other’s company, so that’s something only we know, and in a way it makes it special… well, I mean 1/2 a day without contact makes me feel an absence and it really does make me feel miserable, whatever it is that causes us to be seperated (even examinations arg!!!), imagine 4-5 days?… We’ve never been seperated from any form of contact for more than two days (we quarrelled, he smsed but I was stubborn and refused to send a reply until the two day limit… haha aiyaaaaaa you you you you >=/ youuuu!!! )other than these two experiences… somehow, it’s grown and become a part of me. I’m thankful that I have him around so often, in school, at home, his home, … everywhere, I guess these months have taught me so much.

Really.

hao ai ni wor

Taken in June hols, when we met each other everyday from morning til night time. We didn’t realize the camera didn’t focus properly, and I forgot what we were laughing about. It was like an obsession, I realize. I really am attracted to … your personality, and the way you can be so so so terribly concerned about me, caring, sweet, how you show the most concern for me and no one else and how you constantly make me want to take care of you, be by you… this strong urge, every single time.

I know what they say, about how love is blind and whatever, but the thing is, it really isn’t! You’d have to know someone to love him, and you won’t understand if … you don’t feel that love or know the person in that sense. I don’t believe that anybody feels the way I do about you now, and in a sense this sum of happiness and fulfilment that I feel, like the way sweets are packed into an empty cookie jar until they overflow, just makes me feel so, so lucky. Blessed beyond… belief.

Thank you for being a part of my life. (: I really do love you a whole lot, you can pour my love into a thousand pitchers and they’d overflow and flood the world anyway (:.

lupxlupxdeepxdeepxlonglongthickthick! ^^

love birds and a pink sky

sleeping... (:

I can still smell the honeydew,
…
in your hair.

(((:::

Wheeheehee! ^^

It’s 2.22am! Whee, this is a good time to blog.

Right. Heehee… pig is going to kill me and say I deserve my eyebags. =(

I’m still compiling notes for Art ahahahaha, dieeee how am I going to finish studying at this rate? Art is on Monday… that’s only 2 more days away. Hmm, I know that I should have started earlier, but I don’t regret having spent the time other wise =/ because it was worth it! Don’t whack me! Meep.

love you all =) Can’t wait til after (my) promos so that I can cook and bake for all of you, and then after (your) promos finish, we can go out to watch movies, play and have sleepover parties! Haha, all of us! =D I can’t wait to go to China too, haha, but a part of me doesn’t want to leave… I mean, what if I don’t ever come back? Touch wood ahhhh!!! x_x One of the reasons why I can’t wait to go is because I really want to have some time off just to go shop for everyone and get everyone something special and perhaps get pre xmas presents (:. I want new clothes, shoes, everything for all of us! I swear I will bring 1 empty bag and 2 empty luggages there and come back with all of them filled. I will take the shoes out of the boxes if I have to, just to maximize space. Haha! =) Anyone reason why I’m so psyched is because I want to take really good photographs… of anything really, just to inspire me. I want to feel and see things from a whole new perspective when I’m there, and perhaps bring back some new discoveries. Would be sweet to learn new survival skills!

I wonder if dad’s really going to leave me alone there. O_O It will be fun! (x I don’t think I’ll turn off the lights when I sleep though… the toilet light might be left on too because erm, … yea. -.-Haha, whaaaaatttt. I am so incoherent!!! I’m tired la, forgive me.

I hope I won’t lose anything I bring there. I want to bring tubbyhubby but he’s so small. What if I lose him there?…

Here’s some pretty mooncake designs.

Mooncake from lena

lamborghini mooncake!!!

1)Thank you Lena, you don’t know how happy it made me feel. I actually ate and saved the middle for you but it was going to rot… so I finished it. I still feel bad you know? =/
2) I know, right! A lamborghini mooncake, for real! I gave it to feng, along with the plastic bag and the super pretty box. Even lambo owners don’t have the box, or the mooncakes, but like feng said ‘I’d rather have the lambo, the main thing is the car right =.=’ and I had to agree with that. =.= Haha, but the mooncake had double yolk anyway! Whoo! ^^

Okay. It’s 2.43am. I am going to sleep now. (: The TV show is so interesting but I think I really have to sleep now. =/

Raaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhh >;(

There’s this random email in junk on hotmail that goes like this “Are you ready for sex? BE READY!” and I just flipped after seeing it, I mean, huh?!?! Hahahaha =D

O_O

Anyway, I actually came here to complain that I fell down two times today. I didn’t trip on anything, which… explains how much of a klutzzz I am. Zzzz. /_\ and, I kicked the toilet seat by accident while brushing my teeth in the morning so that accumulates to a total of three bruises. Not happy. =(

>=(
NOT HAPPY!!!

Three words

So I get it. So you don’t want to be my friend anymore.
No, I don’t want to be your friend anymore, I don’t want to be your friend anymore. Do you want me to nail it on your door: I don’t want to be your friend?
No, you—You can’t. You can’t stop being my friend. It’s not something people can decide.
Oh yeah they can. People have an argument and then they stop talking to each other.
Okay, then let’s have a date or something and we can talk about things. If that’s what you want.
What’s the point? You’ll want me as a friend.
You’ll have a nice boyfriend, …
and that’ll kill me.
- from the science of sleep

For a brief moment today, I was so tempted to pick up the lip stick and blusher, and draw little hearts all over my cheeks, lining the contours of my face, ending right above the brow and down my neck, just because I felt like it, and just because it would make me happy. Insane, to you, maybe, but I just might show it to you someday, and you won’t find it so insane.

It’s as simple as that, you don’t need to describe it. All I need you to do, is to close your eyes and tell yourself to feel, for just that very brief moment, what it feels like to be thankful, to know that love surrounds you, to realize that at the end of the day, even if both my legs, my eyes, are crippled, I will be there because I said I would be. And that’s because my heart isn’t crippled, not yet, not ever. It will beat for you.

and we all want to be told, that the best thing about us is wonderful, and that’s the best thing we want to hear. At least, that’s the best thing I’d want to hear.

‘Sweetie, you can’t disappoint me. Because who you are, is exactly what I want. ‘ – from mozart and the whale

Why me? ‘Because everyone else is boring, and you’re different.
And he sees her spontaneous and free and everything else he is not and of course, falls in love. – from the science of sleep

‘And so, my love, we can build a sea out of cellophane and trees out of craft paper, and we can have a forest in a boat, as we ride on golden the pony boy, far away into the sea, on this boat. ‘ – from the science of sleep

I love how my imagination works, and I love how you make it work for me.

<321hug!

Watching him pushing the button that turns her from that colourful, eccentric girl, into someone for both what we can see has problems, deeper problems that he can realize. She’s really someone who needs understanding as much as he does.

From mozart and the whale:

why tell your life story, and only tell the good parts? …
*

this is the most peaceful…. the most beautiful place that I know…. and the world doesn’t want it anymore, so they left it to me.

To us.

This is a special place
that’s just for us.

I have put up with an array of stuff

from you that no one should tolerate…

because I thought that

you would do the same for me.

Isabelle Sorenson: All this time, and you didn’t call.
Donald Morton: I was gonna call.
Isabelle Sorenson: You were?
Donald Morton: Well just to tell you that I wasn’t gonna call so that you wouldn’t be aggravated, sitting around waiting and wondering when I was
Isabelle Sorenson: gonna call?
Donald Morton: Yeah. But in the end I figured that forcing myself into your life was probably not right. I would always do that. So the only nice thing I had left to give was just not to call.
Isabelle Sorenson: I hated you for not calling. Because you were always gonna be there, and when you weren’t, it was as if you didn’t love me anymore.
Donald Morton: So go home, I’ll call ya.