Happy days! =D

27th - 29th has been like Heaven!

I’ve been really happy recently ever since I had the opportunity to stay over at feng’s place!  It was a really sweet, romantic experience, nothing too fancy or exciting. Just really slow, comforable and lovey dovey =). Hehe, blush!!! ^_^ I was like practically being smotherrrreeeddd in lovvveee, literally. Don’t imagine that, it can be rather scary hahaha!

It’s probably been one of the most memorable experiences this year. I still can’t believe that mom allowed me to sleep over and she smsed him regularly to update her about my situation ahaha. =D

The mornings bring back the most memories, when I see unmoving lips and eyes rest on a soft pillow as the sun peeks through the window and I wonder if any movement I make will seem like an earthquake struck the scene in his dream. Hair’s a mess, arms wrapped tightly around a bolster… it’s true when mom says we always look like angels when we’re deep in sleep. Well I know I don’t! Hahaha, I just look like a dead pig XD Hahaha, … but he does. He practically GLOWS, even in the mornings. =)

The afternoons pass by really slowwwwwwwwlllyyyyyyy likeeee sloths. That’s really not a hint of how we spent the time we had though it sounds very much like it… Hahaha =D

Oh, except on the first day, P, D and Y came over to play mah jong and stayed over as well and proceeded playing mah jong (PENG PENG PENG!!! Why wasn’t Peng invited huh??? Okay don’t laugh =))/cards til really, really late (almost 3-4 I think? Aiyo!!) as I shifted about different couches, falling asleep on each of them. I was rotting most of the time away watching tv and playing with feng’s lovely ah girl who is always such a beautiful girl it’s unbelievable! When he woke me up after they had finished, I was so drowsy that I couldn’t speak properly and he guided me upstairs into the bedroom and I plonked myself on top of the mattress and something inside me exploded and inside I was yelling hallelujah!!! ^^. After he settled the guys down (like a nice gentleman haha!), he came into the room and woke me up again and again to his amusement (!!!) and I was like practically dying and cursing inside, but then after we talked a little, he felt tired and we fell asleep. The next day, they left in the morning (Y left only after breakfast) and I fell asleep after breakfast, and when I woke up it was feng’s turn to sleep in the afternoon, and the day just crawled by as his cousins and aunts and uncles came over and we just lived in each other’s presence. =) At night, I was so tired and wanted to sleep already but he woke me up repeatedly like for almost 30+ times!!! So cruel right. T_T He did all sorts of random things repeatedly just to wake me up and then he would laugh and say how cute I looked when I was asleep (???) and seeing the state that I was in at that time…, all I could do was to wake up and whack him once before going back to sleep… which added to his amusement and fascination of my sleeping positions and how I look when I sleep. =_= When I finally got up, he was so happy, smiling and all (Can you believe it?!?!) and so we talked and watched television until he said he was tired and then I started complaining to him how unthoughtful he was when he kept waking me up and how great I was that I wasn’t doing it to him then and he just smiled and apologized and I just melted -_- and we just slept. -_- … Should have made creepy noises when he was sleeping or something… haha but I’m kidding ’cause that didn’t even come to mind. =)

We woke up at 8 for tuition (so fun!!!), and then we walked ah girl in the evening after having a delicious Nasi Lemak dinner, prepared by his chef aunt (woo!), before joining his relatives for a short badminton SHOWDOWN at the nearest community centre. It was fun teaching his cousins how to play badminton, and I felt quite confident with the racket until I went onto court and joined him to play against his aunt and cousin. O_O I was so lousy, and darling was like practically saving my shots as I stood there like an ice sculpture smiling and feeling guilty everytime the shutter cock zooms past by grasp. =D Alamak! Hahaha, my face feels so warm now. O_O

Eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep!!! ><

So that’s about the gist of these few days. The rest is left to your imagination hahaha who am I kidding, it’s just private la, like all romantic honeymoon getaways are! =) And… he was really, really sweet to me these few days (besides all the sudden irritating behaviour at night!!!) it’s like a whole new experience, We both feel that we’re much closer than before haha… I wonder how many times I’ve actually said that, but yeah there are stages of closeness and connection. He sent me sweet smses when I left, and they were like drop dead diabetes sweeeeeet!!! So I guess maybe I’m just embracing all of this and diverting the sweetness here too…

There was this night, I remember, when he literally carried me on his shoulders and it kind of felt like I was floating, and it felt pretty incredible.

You know when they say you’ve crossed a line, you can never go back?

I think it’s true when they say there’s this certain extent to how far you connect with someone, and once it crosses the border/line/boundary, you’ve kind of ventured into another stage, and that can be a good or bad thing. But in this case, I’d like to look at it like an amazing thing. (: I feel really in love now, at this stage, and I’m not willing to trade this with anything in the world.

手牵手，一起走！

Choices

Just some food for thought:

There are 2 kinds of love in this world- the ordinary, mundane kind that lasts forever, and the dazzling heart racing kind that is short-lived. If you had a choice, which would you choose?

Think about it, and it explains why many people choose neither – they simply just do not love.

Quickie!

News update! The crew has left the crib, and feng’s sleeping downstairs. I’m mid way through ‘the way home’ and I apologize for the sudden rant yesterday, and that I have yet to tell mummy how much I love her.

A New Oven

Yeeeeeeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa! ^^

Mum and I are going shopping for a new oven later!!!

Haha, now I shall reveal the secret I’ve been keeping so long. Truth is, I’ve always had an oven. Yes, a proper one that can be switched on … but the problem was that every time we switched it on the house would go into complete darkness. Uh-Huh, and mum’s reasoning was because the interior’s moist, so it won’t cook anything for long before we experience a black out. So, it’s never really existed in our lives. ): The microwave then became my new best friend, but now the light doesn’t turn on while cooking so the only way we can tell if the food’s cooked is by opening the little window, and then all the heat escapes and etc. We figured despite how it’s still in good working condition, it will never develop superior abilities resembling the oven. ): So, we will be discarding it soon/chucking it away/replacing it with a brand new oven which is much more superior. We might even be getting a new microwave oven as well.

D: *Gasp*

):

Sounds pretty sad, huh? But that’s how we improve. We’ve got to take every opportunity to let us rise to greater heights, try out new dishes, bake better, cook better! Looking at how excited I am, I might be using the oven almost every day from today, and I hope that helps in my future career. Heh! I’m going to set up a restaurant – don’t laugh at me – and the food will be deeeelliiiccciiiouussss!!! Zan Bu Jue Kou I tell you. Special entrees only for good friends hahaha, I’m joking. Free food FOR ALL! ^^ I’m also kidding!!!

Okay so goodbye micro~ and welcome oven. Get it? Micro~, ~ being the ‘wave’.

Suddenly feels so cold in here haha!

Going to stay over at his house tonight woo I’m pretty excited too. (: So mom and I are going to bake for him! And we spent the entire morning talking about him. Haha, I know right. I just told him about the morning and he seems pretty worried/disturbed about the whole thing. She likes you, really… SEE? Not scared already right! Hahaha. =)

And I’ve fallen in love with a completely NEW breed of toy dogs which are just the cutest things alive… but I … won’t get another dog til I’m ready to take care of Silver all by myself. I need to learn to be more disciplined, and to spread more love! I want to see one of those cuties in real life though, but they cost like more than 2k each and I don’t think there are breeders in Singapore. Oh well, would be lovely to get to experience something so special and delicate in my arms. They are just so drop dead adorable. ^^”

OKAY GTG BYE =D WILL POST CUTE KITTY PICTURES UP LATER! ^^

Speech bubbles

I lose touch of the real world when I am lost in this gaze… so can this be forever?

I’m hoping that it will feel like that tomorrow night. (: Woke up at noon today, and didn’t get to see him because I ended up spending the day with mum, which is also a really, really good thing. *Whispers: He just smsed me!!!* I miss… many people. Saw a bag I really, really like at AMK and if I purchase it, it will be The. Most. Expensive. One. Ever. Dies. It’s like a few hundred bucks! Hahaha! -Goes Crazy- I reaaaaalllly like it … but I’ve already convinced myself that spending so much on things that don’t last forever and bring you well, more or less only just temporary satisfaction is just a total waste of money and time. So I won’t get it. Yup… must learn to be more strict with myself.
Hmm! >=( I am going to get a piggy bank that resembles a pig and make it BLOAT with savings and then … get it a lover, and BLOAT her too. Haha! ^^

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Digressing here, I think my mum’s… amazing.

1. Completely non materialistic (you have to live with her all your life to realize this. Not that she doesn’t care about how she looks or dresses sloppily or anything. She looks presentable for every.single.occasion., with only touches of make up (foundation, natural tone lip stick, and that’s all. Wow.) when she really needs it. It’s really something I respect her for. She doesn’t dress to impress (like show some cleavage or leg or anything that just speaks badly of a parent) or flaunt her wealth (she can really afford to if she wanted, honestly), no mascara, eyeshadow or too much blingblingz. It’s just always enough to look beautiful, approachable and suitable for the occasion. I can’t express how much I respect her for that. You don’t see many mothers who can be role models for their children (I’m not pointing fingers!) in this field.

2. She is thrifty. She saves. A(whole)lot. PERIOD.

3. She gives us the best, and encourages us to be the best we can. She’s always emphasized on the importance of being independent, and to have a strong, yet sensitive/positive character. She’s supportive of many things that we do that may be unconventional (me sleeping over at his place tomorrow) or strange (sleeping on the couch instead of the bed when the bed is clearly 1000 times more comfortable) or weird (eating out of the pan) or just plain bizzare (I won’t elaborate/no more examples before I embarrass myself further!!! )= ), and she tolerates our faults (both old and new) all 365 days each year. Always putting us kids before herself. Always. Money, health, everything.

4. She’s forgiving, showers unconditional love and is always putting in her 100% until she’s so tired out at the end of each and every day (as everyone grows older, we know their immune system weakens, and she’s been getting ill more often than she did before), and she hasn’t complained once.

5. Light hearted. Sweet. Cute! You can ask my erm, friends? They’ve experienced her sudden bursts of noises…  I swear I don’t do that too. I don’t!!! =(… right? … Man. -_- It’s her fault!

5. Top role model for mothers and I’m really not being biased, but she’s gone through a whole lot of crap (I can’t emphasize how much she’s gone through… it might make you cry – it made me cry.) and she’s so strong. And stubborn (Hmm!), but yeah, strong.

6. Just extra reasons that are just bonus points. She’s sporting to try new things, and she’s so sporty – I mean come on who has a mom who wakes up at 5-6 and jogs 10km every alternate morning? I used to think she was mad but she’s just really, really sporty. Her mood is the same everyday (unless she’s ill, then she’s a little grouchy but come on she’s human), even when it is her time of the month! And she’s a great person, she’s loving towards anyone she knows, unbiased and very, very caring. You’ll just have to see her in person to understand. She says i take after her in this trait, heh, but I hope I can take after all her traits…

So many words, but … it’s still not enough.

She’s just more than I can ever ask for. And I love her, a whole lot.

And… I need to pluck up this courage,
and tell that to her.

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And I need to return yityng her notes asap, I feel really, really bad about it.

Effervescing love

I lose touch of the real world when I am lost in this gaze… so can this be forever?

Your hold, possibly the most comfortable thing in the world. At least in my world there’s nothing else like it. Even when you close your eyes as you sleep, the sparkle doesn’t fade and my heart wishes to echo yours.

When I see you laugh, I melt into a puddle.

Cute imagery. ^^ I’ve always been so lovey dovey and that kind of stuff, am I a romantic? -.-

We just had prata and we’re going to start math homework soon! Hmm, we started going for math tuition at some place near Serangoon (straight bus!!!) for two weeks already and the teacher’s really good, patient, everything so I’m pretty encouraged to start revising math. It’s strange how it isn’t distracting to be sitting next to feng during math… he doesn’t seem distracted either, so mum was like ‘good! don’t distract each other ah.’ Haha I’m also going to ask mom if I can stay over on the 26th to 28th. His friends are coming over too so I think it’ll be fun.  I’m hoping she’ll let me stay over not just one night but two nights in a row. I’m really hoping that she will. =)

I also got messy ‘bangs’, by accident at my mom’s friend’s salon! =D After she chopped it off I was ‘AH IT’S GONE and why does it look so seng ek??’ so she cut it somemore and now I’ve got bangs!!! WOO ^^ OH it felt really strange at first letting something cover my forehead… like how I wasn’t used to braces before heehee. But everyone (that includes his trendy aunt hahaha and mom!!! and many others) who has seen me recently thinks that it looks way cuter (eeeeeeeeeeeeeeps) and makes me look erm more attractive (HMMM (:) hahaha so, (; YAY OKAY!!! The only person who thinks that I still look the same is my sis. Bleh. How encouraging, yun. -_- Haha, but who would have thought I can carry off bangs huh! ^^ I’ve also got more reasons to carry around cotton hairbands now. I guess I’ll live with it… but it’s so uncomfortable sometimes, and I want my long fringe back because I can work more hairstyles with it but you can probably tell I’m quite happy with the response! ^^ HEEHEEHEE.

Next time I’m going to shave off my head and see if I look hot in it. (x

I’m only joking.

NOT! xD

Smells like love.

The holidays have been pretty packed with fun and excitement. It’s like an open door to a whole new height! Online shopping (hurrah!), eating, researching and creating… I don’t know, do I seem to be repeating the same things over and over again in posts?! Hee, he’s becoming sweeter, I don’t know why but it seems like I’ve been the one getting my way all the time. I feel a little bad about it. I’m sorry. /_\ After my moodswings end, I’ll give in. (;

And flowers are so gorgeous. Mum brings home a new basket of assortments every Sunday. It’s like a whole new package of discovery every weekend. Insanely beautiful. Smells like love.

And I’ve been happy. I think that’s most important. =)

But I need a girls night out!!!

Who’s up for snow? (:

I’m near.

You no longer have to fear, or worry
I told you before, I am always here
watching over you even as you’re fast asleep
this promise is something I swear to keep

Good night, sleep tight,
I love you.

(:

I LOVE TO SHOP!!!!!!!!!!!

(((::::::::::

Okay ignore that.

Ahem.

This made me laugh. Well, it might not make you laugh but it’s alright I’m putting it down here anyway. (:

‘Love you.’

‘Love you.’

‘Love you more than you love me.’

‘Love you so much that I’ll cook you chicken wings.’

‘Love you more than you love me I’ll eat your chicken wings.’

When I saw the final reply I was like ‘WHAT!’ and then I started hollering. Hmm, I smile everytime I think of it! ^.^ I will never delete that sms FOREVER.

Today was fun. I tried out new recipes for dinner. Rosemary flavoured ‘healthy’ wings (surprise) and used a new roast parmesan potato recipe. Took two hours to marinate and boil the chicken wings and I got so impatient so I whipped up some potatos into a baking pan and etc. Took another two hours to roast the potatoes dry until they got super soft. The wait was horrible, but the dishes turned out really good woo, but I wished his training would end earlier so he could eat the food while it was warm. That really makes a difference. Mum said she loved the wings, heehee, that’s really an accomplishment because my mom’s picky when it comes to food, and she’s one who only eats the BEST chicken wings in town so … yipee! (: Jamie Oliver is so inspiring, pity the recipe’s not on the internet yet, had to improvise because I forgot most of it. I think presentation is really important, and certain foods just complement each other while others repel. It’s like caramalized mango with roast duck is great but banana and chicken patties are just puke-worthy. I aspire to be a great cook one day ^_^, and I thank my loved ones for supporting me.

Speaking of loved ones… Lena’s in cambodia now!!! (: With the team. All the best. =)

I want to create a list of places and things that made up 2008, but there’s just so many. I will do it someday, just you wait!

I won’t get to see him tomorrow. ): He will be at D Chen’s house with his friends playing PS2 and doing things that boys do (hmm I wonder (x). He asked me to go but how can I! I’d be like a nuisance, and what if i PMS right? So tomorrow is officially another shopping/cooking day/non-school day. Happee. ^^

But will be happeer if I have you. ): -Pout-

Something beautiful to share!

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Nothing sweeter than a pink rose, they say. =)

It’s 6am in the morning and I am still awake (that’s really going to take a toll on my health).

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Beautiful! Isn’t it?

Here’s more! =)

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^_^ So pretty!

I shall end off with a cute picture also from Nushuz’s collection.

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Have a good day ahead! (: It might just become an adventure.

Hmm.

The past few days have been mentally exhausting. It seems like my senses have taken over my brain in controlling my body and my moodswings are becoming more regular (and that’s never a good thing). It’s always happening at moments before I feel groggy enough to nap in the afternoon and somewhere from 8pm to 10pm. I don’t like getting all worked up. It’s actually really tiring to get worked up and annoyed at anything and everything that moves and produces any form of sound that catches my attention and isn’t cute or innocent enough to be seen as a delightful surprise. Looks like I need to eat more omega 3000 fish oil tablets to stablize my raging hormones or fulfill whatever it is that’s on their description. I’m behaving like a pregnant lady! O_O Sudden food cravings and stormy temper is never a good combination for anyone, it’s so physically and mentally torturing and the worse part is where you are helpless to it.

(/___\) Bleh.

And because I’ve had more free time on my hands recently, I’ve been doing some really random things. I’ve shopped (way over shopping budget, feeling very guilty), ate good food, cooked, read, brainstormed… I’ve also been thinking alot, maybe I’ll blog about that later.

Shopping: Spent the past week shopping all over orchard and hollandv. Bought expensive handbags, dressez, l*nger*e, all sorts of footwear and toys!!! Heeheehee. Feeling kinda guilty now. =/ I think I have enough things to last me through til next June. Serious. -_-” I’ve got 12 receipts and most are above _00. I need to save money but it’s christmas season. =_= I also bought mom the best sea salt moisturizing body scrub I can find. (: I went all over town trying out scrubs on my hands and it got so tedious and boring but if you could walk on my skin you’d slip straight away =P!  = I’ve found the perfect one for her = satisfaction = not cheap so big hole in pocket = worth it anyway.

Good Food: Been to quite a few good sushi buffets this month, and I want to eat at The Line soon! Becoming a big glutton but it’s okay la because I can stomach all of it. =D

Cooking: I’ve been watching a whole lot of TV = inspiration = tomorrow’s lunch is on me. Theme? HERBS with everything. Obsessive right!

Reading: Jodi Picoult’s nineteen minutes is all I’ve started on since the last book. I’ve been reading more magazines and fiction online… maybe I’ll share a good poem I saw a week ago. =D

Brainstorming: Art Course Work for next year. STRESSED and terribly excited. I can’t wait to get… even more stressed, haha. Honest! Can you believe creating a piece of art work of your own? … A really professional one. It super cool in my opinion, and it’s probably once in a life time unless I’m really sure I want to pursue art next time. (: Jiayou !

TV: Gossip Girl is amusing.

Best thing today was when I met Lena at the MRT Station at Bishan! Really made my day, even though things got awkward as Si Hui came along hurhur… and then Yi Nan. Saw Anzie and Yongzhu too. Hmm, yea I was really happy to see her today. Really, really happy. =)

Oh and I think I had a case of stomach flu in the morning. Very horrible experience, I don’t want to talk about it. =/

Thoughts: If you placed yourself in front of a crowd of strangers, how much do you think you’ll cost? You’re not selling yourself to anyone, it’s just a gauge of how much you’re worth. Arh, but this thought is so complicated and so vague at the same time. I have not thought much into it, but if I put you in front of everyone, you’d be worth a whole lot. You’d be worth so much, it’s incredible! Haha. You don’t have to guess who you is, because you’re leaving on a jet plane tomorrow afternoon, and I’ll be missing you from then on.

And I’m still feeling bad about the other time, haiz.

Protection

I’m so sorry.

I’m sorry for invading without asking for your permission. I didn’t know what I did would have such a large impact, and I apologize that I did not see this coming. If I did, i would have never done that.

Can I promise… I won’t invade again. It’s hard to promise something and keep to it, and have the other party believe that you will… but I will. Please trust me. I know how we girls think, I know what privacy means to all of us. I promise because the last thing I’d want to do is to hurt you, unknowingly too. I’m sorry, really. I’m sorry for apologizing a day late, too, and for doing it via the blog.

… Sigh.

I have been so naive. I’m sorry. I don’t have the guts to say it to you personally… If I pluck it up one day, I will. All I can say now is that … I’m sorry once again, and … though I could relate to what you felt … I won’t visit or share or do anything like that ever again.

I’m just really sorry.

(:

I know it’s pretty cliche,

So I went onto Claire’s FB account and looked through her pictures and I just started smiling. It wasn’t as nostalgic as I thought it would be, but it makes me feel happy (and kinda fuzzy). You guys all dressed up with make up and eyelashes… just makes me realize how fast we’re all growing up, together.

There are some faces I can’t wait to see next year. (:

Resentment.

Okay. I deleted everything.

But I am still going to kill him one day. (: Can’t wait.