I swear ah! >=|

I need to say this – - -

I’m going to nurse him back to the pink of health by latest tomorrow afternoon.

PERIOD!

I am so =( that he’s so x( that I want him to be =) or =D or =3 or 8D

SeeAnnWhy =D

( First and foremost – will edit this post with pictures when I’m ready with them! )

Okay, I’m going to blog about how today and the day before went because it’s the most pressing thing that I have yet to share! Where shall I start… =)

Oh let me introduce you to our most talkative guest on the night before cny day 1. /_\ Her name is XuWenQi and her english name is Pink (honestly) and she’s from taiwan! We’ve been friends since I was five I think, and she’s five years younger than me. She’s studying in Singapore right now, and stays with us on weekends, and she got to spend New Year’s Eve with me as we laughed and talked about all sorts of things before falling asleep at a super late time. =) She was with me the next day too, but left to stay at another friend’s house in the evening. =/

So anyway! The day started reaaaally eaaaaarlyyy *groan*. I woke up at 6.30am, gave a call to Lena’s place because we had plans to meet but then later it got cancelled, so I headed home to bathe and dress up (whee=) the first dress that feng picked for me, how special ^^) and then ate tons of walnut cake and kueh lapis and a piece of ba gua before our first three guests, nainai, dajiejie and xiaogege arrived. It was around 10.30am I think. The buffet people weren’t here yet, so we still had to wait for the food aww mann. =(

Soon, more and more people came and our house was super packed. It felt like everyone on earth was in the house (when actually it’s just like 60… 60?!!!)and there was barely any space to sit or move around… it actually made me feel abit claustrophobic I think, there were times when I had to walk into the kitchen to take a breather. So us being the children of the hosts of the party had to be warm and friendly and helpful.. but I guess we just sat around stuffing ourselves with food from the buffet, happily recieving ang paos in all shapes and colours and saying ‘Xiexie’ like automated robotic things.

Haha who am I kidding =)

I mixed around alot, more than I’ve ever done before, and it felt quite nice talking to certain people and laughing about other people =P and just being happy around food and $$$ and pine apple tarts. =D =D It was also a good time to spend time with my ever-so-funny cousins who never fail to make me smile/laugh. I really think it’s a family characteristic that we’re all humourous, sociable people, and I’m super proud of that! It was really like a big reunion, and boy have some people GROWN. It’s amazing how boys shoot up during puberty, and how girls (like myself, as said by like almost every aunt ^^) rapidly blossom. So nice of them haha make me feel so shy laaa. /_\ But I know the older boys/girls don’t grow/change so much. =P Woops!!! Hahaha, jkjk ^^they read my blog.

Took SOOOOO many photographs.

My super smart cousins – We call them Jeff and Jon for short. Jeff skipped a grade woohoo and he speaks better english than all other kids it’s astounding. I’ve a good feeling that Jon is just a naughtier version of the smartie pants. =) And yes, they’re playing chinese chess. I don’t know how to play chinese chess!!! /_\

And then at around 3 oclock, most of the crowd had left and there was more space to move around. I went for my second serving of lunch and officially gave up eating anymore (for like an hour… ) and spent time with Wenqi, who kept encouraging me to take photographs and she was really really understanding as I was raving about feng again and again. We went over to feng’s house to bai nian (forgot to bring oranges, shucks!) and then she ran out of the house because she was afraid of dogs and feng was being really bad =(. Okay fine, we were both being very bad to each other, and we both got so pissed… >=(

JAKSDHDJSSNMNKLVCJDJD!!! Hmpf. >=(

but then it was resolved eventually ^^”, and he came over to visit my dad, mom and nainai and by that time, everyone else had left already so my nainai was like stuffing him with food over and over again and mum was literally spamming starchy foods onto his plate and he practically foamed and ate everything down (with some of my help). ^^I feel so happy to see mom and nainai pampering him. Dad was silently laughing through out the process, but I think feng didn’t notice (well now you know =P).

Later on we just bummed around on the couch with my lappy. =)

We watched Titanic which was showing on some TV channel, and I cried like 4 times during different sections of the movie T_T and even when it had finished I was still crying and feng was panicking (as usual) and comforted me again and again and told me it was all fiction… and then all of a sudden he said ‘it’s real!’ and my eyes were just about to explode with tears again until he clarified that the love between jack and rose was not, but some characters and the incident were. I was like @_@…and the tears were so ready to fall… can you imagine if the love was real? Ahh heart break piang piang piang!!!

And then we ate tons of junk and got high until 10. Sent him off to the bus stop and we bid farewell. =( Aww. But no worries, I actually had a really memorable day, even though I wore a black dress which made some people ask me why over and over again, but the truth is that the dress means alot to me! ^^ Nainai and mom were also wearing the necklaces that I made for them. Feng’s company into the late night also made my day really special. =)

And today  morning I gulped down half a box of pine apple tarts (possibly the most expensive our family has ever purchased, thanks mom!), tons of ba gua, walnut cakes and kueh lapic, an entire fish (I heard it’s ex but I’ve no idea what’s the breed) and almost half a box of tapioca chips (Yay! I feel great lor! =D)

Kevy was supposed to come over but it was just a really bad time for me, because it seemed like the entire worl was pmsing (why!!!) and feng’s down with a fever, so I came over to visit him… and I gulped down even more tapioca chips and hohoho I feel like a pine apple tart already!!! He slept so much and looked so cute but he barely ate anything arggg if only there was like easy food that didn’t taste so strong. =/ He wants to sleep again…

It’s 9 and I’m not home and there’s school tomorrow (I’m not ready but what the heck, bring it!). So… I am going to bathe, byebye! ^^ I don’t think he’ll be going to school tomorrow which makes me want to pon school tomorrow… but that’s very unlikely la. =)

And I remember a friend telling me in school last week that I looked as though my face was just glowing, like shining and radiating happy vibes I guess, and she said because it seemed like I was so in love. Haha, what a thought to remember all of a sudden. I better go tell him about it now! ^^

Happy and high on CNY!

Beware of extreme highness 8D

Ahahahaha =)

Happy CNY everyone!

Hope your CNY was filled with fun, food and highness! ^^

Will blog about the day when I’ve finished organizing the photographs to send to my couzzies. The most unexpected thing that happened was probably the number of guests who turned up… they literally flooded the house. O_O

Happy chinese new year dear =)

CNY Hols are here!

It’s the holidays! Which means no school, not so much homework, and more time on my hands to do whatever I want! Yay! ^^ And also more food. xD

Been spending time with love again, having late dinners, shopping for CNY clothing (he always had good taste in dresses it’s… strange) with loads of moolah, picking jeans and shirts for him, playing bishi bashi at the arcade and watching people on street fighter TV battle it out with each other (it’s so COOL!!!), caught Bride Wars and there are too many cat fight scenes but at least now he knows the sigficance of weddings to girls and Kate and Anne are fierrrrce, napping and napping and napping in the afternoon, me being his fitness instructor after naps (er), eating tapioca chips and more, blowing up stomachs and endless laughing =D

I think that the most comfortable place to be on a date would be one of our houses, because we have the comfort of airconditioning (which gets too cold so just the fan will do), internet, food (so many good outlets around our places), bed =D, piles of movies (+ movie rental shop near by), facilities in general and each other. The bonus is that we sometimes don’t spend a cent, … and it feels really, really… romantic.

Heh. ^^

Reminder to get some shabu shabu beef for zf’s family and mine. No steam boat is complete without it. =)

And I wish a – - -

HAPPY NEW YEAR

TO EVERYONE =)

hahaha… only to the traditional chinese la =D

A new start

I realized today that life/people/things have their way of blowing you off course all of a sudden, and then setting you straight again at the most unexpected moments. The roller coaster ride of emotions can be sometimes too overwhelming, but not so much that you tip over and fall beneath the ice. In a way it makes you much stronger, and more knowledgable, but I would rather have less of these surprises. They make me feel tired, and ill, and sometimes even really small. But I really like it when you see the light at the end of the tunnel and you know it will be smooth sailing again. It feels like such a relief… that feeling is indescribable.

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Anyway, don’t mention it, love. I will live to hear you sing anytime, anywhere.

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I love to laugh. It drains me, but when I’m lost in my own laughter it’s like I can barely feel anyone or anything’s watching, and there’s this freedom and recklessness that you need to just let lose. God I love that feeling so much. =)))

8!

Some things:

 1.I still don’t feel like it’s alright. As in, you’re all super duper nice, welcoming, everything, but like I told you the other night at the canteen, I still feel very _. But I know it’s ultimately my choice of how to ’solve the problem’, either accept it and be open minded or stop.
2.I think Gautham’s right, I should just give it a shot. It should be my choice, not anyone else’s. Well, here goes nothing!
3.I’m excited for next Friday, but I haven’t told Chris that I don’t exactly have ’sleep over pants’. -_-
4.I think some people never fail to brighten my day EVERYTIME I see them. I just think it’s really neat that they can help me feel great just naturally while chatting. I don’t think they have ANY idea I feel this way too. =) Hope their egos don’t explode when they find out.
5.We are super sticky… like super glue. Eeyer. Except that maybe we smell nice haha honeydew.
6.I don’t think we’ll be watching talent time tomorrow, which means I’ll miss out on Chris and SY’s performances. Blah, maybe next time. You know you have my love!!! ^^
7.Oceana rocks the world!

Today started out on a really bad note, but I’m glad Chen seemed to like her surprise. Happy birthday pretty girl!

Just ended a long phone call with him – we were discussing P & C. What a revolting topic… but then before we both hung up, he said ‘find out how many times ‘ILOVEYOU’, each alphabet standing for 1 unit can be arranged and so since there are 8 alphabets, it’s 8! And thus the title of my post today.

That’s a whoping 40320 times. =)

4 + 3 + 2 = 9 Somebody’s jersey number =D

Beautiful day

Today is the 20th of January! =) HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY CHENNAY! =)

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My arms hurt because I somehow managed to sleep on them yesterday, so 0  blood circulation resulting in numbness and aching. I feel like I have no arms!!!

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I woke up early to prepare tons of things (like print GP summary) And cook steak – first time cooking chuck tender!

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I feel so tired, I want PE block nownownownownow!!!

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I’m afraid I’ll doze off during GP leh.

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I’m one of a kind of a superhero. =)

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 We all are. =D

Forever, really

Until the day I can say: Goodmorning dear, what do you want to eat for breakfast today?

To be completely honest, I didn’t know it was you.

You will live a long, long time, in my mind. I will pick you up, your every little piece, the same way I pick up a child, so gently and carefully - I am afraid of hurting you in every way. I will make sure that you never have to wash your own wounds, or pick up these pieces.

I will feed you, nurse you, live with you, but I won’t be your friend. I want to be more than that.

To me, you will always be the most eye catching, the most colourful, the sweetest thing I see. I am afraid that I grow selfish that I become unwilling to share you -but I do not want you to become inexistent to the world. You deserve to be out there, doing amazing things that no one thought you could accomplish, and at the background you will see me, shouting my heart out, for you. Can you imagine?

You will be a memory that warms up my mornings, you keep me filled til the night. I wonder how long more is it until we have our own sanctuary, where it will just be you and I, for a long, long time. We can be high up in the mountains or swimming deep under neath in the sea until we lose track of time – we’ve ventured into forever, forever.

I don’t want to take things for granted.

We’re holding hands.

I will live til that day comes, I will.

I’m in your arms.

and I will always keep you by my side, I can hear you breathe in the same rhythm.

You’re here.

Forever.

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Until the day, when I wake up and push my head up from below the sheets to be greeted by a sleeping soul next to me,

I will live to see what will be ours, forever.

banglaaalaaalaaa

I was having some fish today during dinner, and then feng’s mum asked me something and it felt as though my taste buds just shut off completely because I was concentrating so hard on what she said. What she said was nothing awkward or unexpected, it was just that I had realized while letting my emotions and thought take over, the fish became tasteless to me. Cool! I never knew our bodies were capable of something like that. Very, very strange… but super cool. =) The fish was delicious, anyway – the taste came back at the same moment I realized I wasn’t tasting much. =D

Anyway, is it just me or do I need a new phone? Xiner, did you get my smses, or are you another victim of my lousy phone connection -_-? … I left my phone at his place after 8, so if you’re going to sms me, think again and call my house or email me! I’m sorry I couldn’t be there for whatever reason. /_\

This is so disconnected. I have yet to bathe. =D

I like pantene. =) on your hair. =D

HONEYDEW!!! 

Okay.

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On the bus back today, I realized how much I love you.

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.. Hehe.

Will update more later on if I still have the energy to. =)

Beautiful

Live everyday like it’s your last day – that was what I wrote on the balloon which was released with all the others to form a pretty little picture up in the sky yesterday morning.

If today was my last day, I would be so full of regret because I did somethings without much thought and that might have caused some people to get upset. I’m glad that I still have a chance to make up to it, and I hope that I live everyday sensibly from now.  

I want to improve myself, to be a better person. I will start from today. 

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CUTE JUNIORS ARE …

=D

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I can’t promise you that I’ll be the most perfect, but I can love you the way no one can.

I swear –  I have, I can, and I will… amaze you again and again. =)

Jiayou, bai ka de xiao nan hai! Ni hao jian qiang. ^_^ Kuai kuai kang fu. =)

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Chris is an amazing singer. Anyone who thinks otherwise needs hearing aid. Chris for talent time! All the way baby. =) I’ve never heard someone sing with so much emotion in each sentence that it actually aches when you sing a sad song, and we all know that doesn’t come easy even if you have a good range. I’m so proud of her la. =)

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I love my friends and family, feel so fortunate to have them around me all the time. It really makes my day sometimes. I thank god for good classmates too whom I’ve ever confided/had random talks with like bren, des, yen, suyin, adi, sihui, matthew, vanessa and  gautham and also rex (who is also majorly sensitive, which I found out early last year). They happen to be the few who are very encouraging too, not just to me, but to everyone, and that makes them really great people to be around. I never thought I would feel comfortable in this class, but I guess time changes some things. =) As for the rest whom I didn’t mention above, I’m quite sure you can understand. =)

Mom talked to me today about relationships and she understood everything I said – how pleasant! I hope to be able to post more photographs up soon, but that’ll really depend on how free I am in the weekend because I think I am actually turning mugger 8-). Good for me, good for us!

Take care, everyone. =)

Happy birthday, dear. =)

Tomorrow is Mr.Chey Zheng Feng’s 18th birthday.

你长大了，已经不是小孩子了哦．要奋斗，要加油，要坚强，要用功．为了自己，为了我，为了大家．

希望你活在世上的每一天都会是快乐的，难忘的．

征峰加油!!! 你会永远有嘉，我，陪伴着你的．

Thank you for being so protective, showering me with constant loving  all the time and keeping me warm when the nights get cold. This bond is something I never thought could reach this level of intimacy, but you proved it wrong. So, you can just go on and keep surprising me. =) 

Never doubt my love for you to die or end like a burnt out flame. This flame rekindles itself every minute and every second of the day. 

Never doubt my love, I say (!) , for I will love you forever. =)

I will love you forever,

I will love you forever.  

祝你生日快乐哦，宝贝．=)

O_O

Watch this space!

Have an awesome day today. (:

Pots of love

The night of 8th Jan was like a scene from some romance novel (Well, that’s just my opinion!) Our eyes met, and I felt this sudden heat consume my face. There was this unfamiliarity… which made everything feel so mysterious. And then as he came closer I started to be aware of my breathing, and you can say it felt like all the action zero-ed in and you forgot everything else around you actually existed. I really felt like exploding, doing all the most embarrassing things like jumping onto someone literally… but I was wearing a skirt.

We were both so shy. Felt like two little children who didn’t even dare to hold hands, because we weren’t sure who was going to have to make the first move. Our eyes were talking, Other eyes were watching. We just stood there, floating around each other (I ran away a couple of times), dropping words and subtle hints hoping they’d be recieved by the other end as quickly as they were released.  My actions echoed his as his smile broke into a silent laugh, and then he exclaimed ‘I missed you, ji- a -’ and he couldn’t finish because he had started chuckling, and then I saw sparks everywhere ^^.

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‘How?…’

‘I know!’

*Shuffle shuffle*

We quickly brought the mattress up the stairs and threw it onto the floor as we entered the room. He ran down to get a few more big pillows and then he set everything and started whining. Whine whine whine whine – ‘I’m tired ah~’ … ‘I want to sleep errrrhhhhhrrmmmmmmmmbleh’ something like that. So I switched off the lights and jumped onto his bed and stared down at the little wonder who had closed his eyes. And then all of a sudden, he started to talk. He talked about all the most random things from the trip… mosquito whacking, food, people… he just kept talking and talking until my eyes felt like they were going to pop out any time, and then it was around 2… to 3 when we fell asleep…

The next day:

Me: Do you remember anything you told me before you slept?

Him: No…

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Me: Expected!!!

=D

You don’t but I do, right up to everything little detail.  

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In my dream, you were a black hamster, and I was a white hamster, and we could talk to one another. You were running on the wheel when you suddenly said ‘Did you eat my corn?’ and I lied. ‘No, I only ate the rice.’ You got mad and started chasing me and we ended up chasing one another on the exercise wheel until I fell off and bumped my head, hard. Then I started to cry, and you ran out of the cage and came back with some 20 pieces of dried corn in your mouth and presented them to me.

And then I cried harder, but that was because I was happy.

And then I pinched your butt.

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Weird dream.

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Woke up feeling great today – like I had the power to command everything and everyone and I was quite sure that everything was going to go my way but I walked out of the room to see mom and nainai cooking in the kitchen with PILES of different food, then I thought ‘Oh no! I can’t cook today…’ and then I fell into depression /_\ for a while before remembering that there’s still another reason for him to come over.

ChopCut hair with me. =D

Conclusion: I love saturdays! It’s like the day when we’re both at home and with our families. It’s like making up for lost time we could have spent with our folks… somehow I find that it makes us more participative in family outings and activities. Let’s be thankful it’s not the other way around. -Smiles-

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Dad got me quite a few new things again. I’ve yet to wear/use them. Because I don’t really need a new camcorder, or anything else, I wonder if I should donate them to charity? I haven’t told him about my plans, but I know he won’t mind. =) He’s always been supportive.

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I know you won’t believe me when I say this… but I feel so much older now. I’m going to become 18 in… 6.5 months, and I feel liberated, but the weight on my shoulders is increasing. I’m growing up, I feel like I know how to manage certain things better, and I like the way how I can read better into some thoughts and motivate myself the right way, but I am also growing a little tired of growing up. I’d like to stay at this age, for now, but because it’s impossible, I’m packing my youth in a sack, and taking it away with me once in a while.

I love being a child.

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Next time, I want to plant trees in my backyard. I want to plant many, many types of flowers as well. I would really, really love that!

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Recieved quite a few random smses and emails to my account in the past week, all asking about my well being and just hellos, take cares, and strangely about the things I blog about. Who knew my blog could become some massive communicative tool? I’m glad so many friends/people on the web enjoy reading. =) It really came to me as a surprise! It’s like whenever I use the com, I log onto wordpress, gmail, and then a few must-sees, and I’m off for the day and it makes me feel a little bad though, because I haven’t been surfing others for like a week + now, so I’m not updated with your lives so much /_\, will leave comments and emails as often as I can, alright? I may not have said this before, but some thoughts are sparked off from reading blogs on photography (hint!) and poetry, so you know who you are – thank you for inspiring me. =)

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Oh but one bad piece of news: JARRELL’S GOING TO KILL ME.

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Been a long time since I last watched him play basketball with the team. Now that school’s about to start, some things are going to revert back to the norm. =) Somehow school doesn’t seem like such a dread to me (excpet for the fact I’ve to wake up really early again and we all hate that), and I’m looking forward to time well spent with the company I love.

I feel so lucky. =)

胜利！

他们说能开心就是一种福气，能拥有就是一种快乐.

如果把‘回来’的‘回’拿走，那也只剩下‘来’.

‘嘉，过来…’     

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开心的心就在一夜中开心到爆炸了^^

1 more day

All it took for me to go from ‘worried’ mode to ‘motivated’ mode, was a ‘Noted’ from the Dean.

I feel so motivated to work harder this year, it’s… so strange, I’ve never felt so compelled to achieve something which I’ve always viewed as impossible or just plain insane. I will work towards my goal, you won’t regret helping me. Thank you so much! =) (You won’t see this, but THANK YOU!!!)

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I’m watching 50 first dates right now, and Adam Sandler’s in it! So is Drew Barrymore. Did I get her name right? Anyway…

I’ve realized that there are just so many things we can be thankful for.

In the show, Drew wakes up every morning thinking that it is her father’s birthday. She doesn’t remember anything that happens after the day before her father’s birthday, because she got into a car accident which caused her some brain trouble. So every day when she wakes up, it’s like she’s always living in ‘her present’, and time goes on without her. Sandler has to let her know every day that she’s no longer living on that day, that it’s been more than a year since her accident, and the painful truth that she won’t be able to remember anything after today. He has ‘first dates’ with her everyday.

I mean, it’s just a show. But it evokes so much in me everytime I watch it, because it reminds me that things like that DO happen in real life. Some people get into accidents, and they don’t wake up. Some wake up, but only for a while and… then they’re gone again. I mean, losing your memory… isn’t that like losing your identity? Can you imagine how scary that can be? Waking up one day… and not remembering who you are? And if you’re Sandler, it’s going to be hard for you too. I don’t think many people have the tolerance to love someone … who wakes up the next day and thinks of you as a complete stranger, so you have to try to connect with them all over again and make them fall in love with you again. You may think he’s crazy, but I think it’s amazing.

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Only one more day, til I see you again. It’s been only just a feeewwww days (everyone’s been saying that well I guess they’re right), but I’m more than ready to jump if you’re ready to catch me. =) I am so ready, and excited, and I feel like jumping around (!!!) and telling everyone that you’re coming back (I totally flipped my pencil off my fingers during tuition and made sze yen, bren and others laugh because I was so excited…and gosh that’s so embarrassing) and I don’t know! It feels… like… my stomach has butterflies? (maybe cause I’m hungry)… and my eyes aren’t tired wow (maybe cause I napped in the afternoon)… and images are popping out of my head, I’m predicting how you look, I’m so so so ready… I’m just so ready to see you again. It’s like…

Hmm….

It’s just the way you feel when you know someone you love is coming home, =). May you have a blessed and safe ride back, dear.

Why oh why do I always wear my heart on my sleeve haha!

I will be smiling so hard tomorrow I think my cheeks are going to hurt!!!

YAY ^^!!!