simple definitions:
- impregnability
- the state of being strong; bodily or muscular power
- vigor of action/feeling/language
- mental/moral power, courage
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Tonight, my mind is filled with a jumble of thoughts. I haven’t made any progress since the last time. My head aches from all the thinking, wondering, I wonder when can I finally put this worrying away. I called his mom to talk for a while, and she’s pretty much the closest contact I’ve had with him the entire day. I feel like I need more than just the daily intake of food/water/sleep as my sustenance. It’s like an injection of positive emotion and protection that is somehow unavailable at all drug stores.
He’s not doing okay. He’s sick.
And that’s all that I’ve really been thinking about since the new day began, because he’s ill and sleepy and not replying many smses. I just got an email from him… and it doesn’t make me feel like I have to worry less, but it still made my day.
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And thank you Des and Weitsi for being great hosts, and Matthew for teaching me mah jong and everyone for coming down and spending time with one another. I take it like It’s a gift from Him, it feel like it’s sent for me to have some good company to make up for my loss of sleep haha -Smiles- So I will be strong, and I will sustain and be 坚强! I promised to be the same bright and perky little smooshee pie when he comes back. So Jiayou jia, jiayou jia!
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Get well soon my love, you need to jiayou jiayou too.
I know it sounds strange, but I want to dream of him tonight. I don’t mind waking up in the morning and remembering that he’s actually away. As each day passes, we are closer to the day we will meet again – and that’s what keeps me going.
This is for you… ^^ a little something that caught my eye. Hope that you smile when you see this!
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