All it took for me to go from ‘worried’ mode to ‘motivated’ mode, was a ‘Noted’ from the Dean.
I feel so motivated to work harder this year, it’s… so strange, I’ve never felt so compelled to achieve something which I’ve always viewed as impossible or just plain insane. I will work towards my goal, you won’t regret helping me. Thank you so much! =) (You won’t see this, but THANK YOU!!!)
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I’m watching 50 first dates right now, and Adam Sandler’s in it! So is Drew Barrymore. Did I get her name right? Anyway…
I’ve realized that there are just so many things we can be thankful for.
In the show, Drew wakes up every morning thinking that it is her father’s birthday. She doesn’t remember anything that happens after the day before her father’s birthday, because she got into a car accident which caused her some brain trouble. So every day when she wakes up, it’s like she’s always living in ‘her present’, and time goes on without her. Sandler has to let her know every day that she’s no longer living on that day, that it’s been more than a year since her accident, and the painful truth that she won’t be able to remember anything after today. He has ‘first dates’ with her everyday.
I mean, it’s just a show. But it evokes so much in me everytime I watch it, because it reminds me that things like that DO happen in real life. Some people get into accidents, and they don’t wake up. Some wake up, but only for a while and… then they’re gone again. I mean, losing your memory… isn’t that like losing your identity? Can you imagine how scary that can be? Waking up one day… and not remembering who you are? And if you’re Sandler, it’s going to be hard for you too. I don’t think many people have the tolerance to love someone … who wakes up the next day and thinks of you as a complete stranger, so you have to try to connect with them all over again and make them fall in love with you again. You may think he’s crazy, but I think it’s amazing.
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Only one more day, til I see you again. It’s been only just a feeewwww days (everyone’s been saying that well I guess they’re right), but I’m more than ready to jump if you’re ready to catch me. =) I am so ready, and excited, and I feel like jumping around (!!!) and telling everyone that you’re coming back (I totally flipped my pencil off my fingers during tuition and made sze yen, bren and others laugh because I was so excited…and gosh that’s so embarrassing) and I don’t know! It feels… like… my stomach has butterflies? (maybe cause I’m hungry)… and my eyes aren’t tired wow (maybe cause I napped in the afternoon)… and images are popping out of my head, I’m predicting how you look, I’m so so so ready… I’m just so ready to see you again. It’s like…
Hmm….
It’s just the way you feel when you know someone you love is coming home, =). May you have a blessed and safe ride back, dear.
Why oh why do I always wear my heart on my sleeve haha!
I will be smiling so hard tomorrow I think my cheeks are going to hurt!!!
YAY ^^!!!
