Archive for June, 2009

The way you make me feel

June 30, 2009

i love you.

feet

I don’t think it’s something I have to make anyone else understand because it’s difficult to as love is such an intimate feeling. It really is. You set yourself to become so vulnerable to so many things when you’re in love that it can be terrifying, but at other times, just beautiful. You can’t really find the words to express it exactly, but deep down somewhere you can feel it pulsing consistently, strongly, and it doesn’t go away. It’s not meant to go away. There is this characteristic that grabs you and changes you almost immediately when you’re sure of it, and it forms a lingering crust.

Once you love, (and you can trust me when I say this), the love stays forever.

Insomnia

June 29, 2009

“Because i can’t sleep til you’re next to me
No i can’t live without you no more
Oh i stay up til you’re next to me
Til this house feels like it did before
Feels like insomnia ah ah, Feels like insomnia ah ah
Feels like insomnia ah ah, Feels like insomnia ah ah”

Not a big fan of techno, but Craig David’s Insomnia is pretty addictive, and baober’s addicted to it! =D The beat is fun and you can bop to it too, that’s a plus factor!

In sommm niaaa~ ahh ahhhh ahhhhhhh! feels like innn sommm niaaaa~ ahh ahhhh ahhhh!  Mm mm ~ =)

The past few nights have kind of been like that too. I find it more difficult to fall asleep at ‘normal’ timings because my body refuses to adjust. We have been naughty in the holidays, heeheehee. Hopefully I’ll be able to reset my body clock before the end of the week. You must too. =)

Just some nice thoughts

June 28, 2009

This June was spent very much different from last year’s, but still that familiar feeling lingers.

It really feels as though I’ve submerged myself into a bucket full of dreams, and I soak in it. Mmhmm. I feel light on some mornings, light enough to be carried off by the sunshine. Worries, however big and scary, can be eradicated in a flash when something happy comes by, like a big long hug, or a kind ear, and somehow the good feeling tends to stay.  

Sometimes I just want to burst out of my skin and shout and exclaim how great and comfortable I feel! How amazing it feels in that very moment to be at wherever, doing whatever, whenever. How splendid and exciting and funny and happy =) How the smallest of things, whether intentional or not, can brighten up my day to such measures, and I just want to share it, when I can.

I really think it’s all because of you, that I feel this way about life sometimes. That life, however structured or demanding, can be so beautiful. I can feel so beautiful. And I feel that you’re so beautiful too, really, even though you’re a boy…

You are ><.

Death creeps up on you

June 26, 2009

Do you think… just maybe, he’s finally found his neverland? Maybe if we all thought this way, it wouldn’t seem so sad. The media and critics have been so harsh on him for the past few years. I believe that most of the time, he just wanted to be left alone.

Why does it seem that someone only matters so much (to you) after he’s gone?

I’ll always remember the first time I saw him dancing on television, the horrified expression on mummy’s face when he did his signature moves (haha), and how dad was the one who taught me how to listen to his voice. That voice, how can a voice be so …soft? It’s lovely. And all the times I stared in amazement and tried to imitate him moonwalking. Wowhee! I’ve never succeeded. =)

Rest in peace.

Extend our holidays ftw =)!

June 22, 2009

www.channelnewsasia.com/singapore

Vote for an extension of school holidays in the poll at the bottom left hand corner of the page. Tell all your friends! :D

I got the news via sms from some dear classmates =). I don’t know how effective this poll can be, but you can see from the results thus far that we have a sure winner…

poll results 

Extend holidays, please? =D

Traumatised

June 20, 2009

Silver’s not okay.

She’s recuperating at the pet hospital now, after having a couple of seizures(if that’s exactly what you call it) in the morning. Ma and Pa both don’t know what’s up exactly, but they both tell me it’s fits, so I searched it up and I think it’s Idiopathic Epilepsy that she’s suffering from. Having witnessed symptoms after the seizure, I’m quite sure it is. And I think it’s because she ate something from the bins outside that contained toxins or poisonous elements.

It scared me alot, and I only witnessed the end of the event. Dad saw the whole thing happen and said there was a moment when she couldn’t control her body and just banged around things and fell onto the ground. She hurt herself too, but wasn’t conscious of it. Her mouth was bleeding while I tried to calm her down. She was restless, she yelped alot, … it’s not something that you can try to forget even if you wanted to. It was traumatising, and it hurt because you couldn’t do anything about it. All you could do was to watch, and just try to comfort her, and just keep looking at her. If I didn’t have to go for tuition in the morning, I wouldn’t have left her side…

Pa and dear both said it’s our fault for leaving the bin outside, and it isn’t the first time she’s flipped the bin and ate some of the food in it. We should have moved the bin else where. I know, … we know, we just didn’t see this coming at all. And I feel so terrible. She’s having SEIZURES, she’s hurting and I don’t even know if she’s alright yet.

I really feel like crying, but I’m in a room full of children, and I just. can’t.

June 19, 2009

=)
Jia you!

17/06/09

June 18, 2009

Under the wild night sky when night falls
you lie right beneath these diamonds
I close my eyes, I would shut my ears if I could
to stop myself from its blinding

how many times can you honestly say
you’ve lived today like it’s your last?

loltybb… huh?

June 14, 2009

People have different levels of tolerance.

There are somethings I can’t tolerate… certain words or phrases, because I find that they’re just there to fill gaps in conversation. They don’t mean anything because they sound insincere, or even a little mean and cold. I think some people know I can’t stand it when people use ‘lol’ to replace their ‘haha’ or ‘ty’ when they should be saying ‘thank you’ or…. You might as well not say anything! ..but I’m guilty of typing or writing this way too, when I give in to my emotions.

外婆80岁了!

June 14, 2009

Just came back from my grandma’s 80th (surprise) birthday celebration! =)

It was held at this Teochew City Seafood Restaurant somewhere near Robinsons. Mum and uncles booked half the restaurant for the celebration, stage, lights and all, and we had around a hundred guests in total! We invited my grandma’s siblings, relatives, friends, exercise mates, everybody! The cousins and I sat at table 2 out of the ten. =)

We arrived at 5.30pm and welcomed the guest to their tables. My grandma came last and had this really grand entrance! =D There was music and a professional photographer who was my cousin’s friend, and she was really shocked/happy. Brilliant =) There was this long queue of guests who wanted to congratulate her/wish her happy birthday/give her ang paos… and she was so overwhelmed by everything. It took some ten minutes before everyone settled down to start dinner. =D

大姐姐 and I were MCs for the night! Mum wrote a script for us hahaha! We spoke in chinese, but attempted speaking a little Teochew and managed to pull it off! Luckily the audience of mama’s old friends and relatives could understand us, though I can’t quite tell if I’m speaking it any differently from them heehee. I guess we just sound different ^^ Anyway, Teochew’s such a soft/sweet dialect compared to Hokkien and others. It’s nice to speak/listen to. =)

We invited a 23 year old 变脸 master to perform for us too! Cool, though it isn’t the first time I’ve watched a performance like that. It was really quite spectacular though, and I haven’t figured out how he switches masks so quickly. I bet they’re in the cloak!!! But … ah, I guess I will never get to know the secret. /_\ Maybe I can try it someday!

The food was so-so, compared to other high end restaurants, but my tummy was well pampered so I guess I shan’t complain too much. >< I actually had a packet of medium fries and two bread talk buns around 6 before the event began, and I still could eat so much. Heh, I guess I’m just living up to my insatiable appetite. -_- Quite scary.

Oh!!! And how could I not mention this. Nai nai’s cake was HUGE. It’s almost say… six times the size of my face? or two times the size of my back! I don’t know exactly, but I think you can imagine right. =)

Nai nai seemed happy through out, though a little stone, but I managed to talk to her a little after we came home before she started to count ang pao money and she kept saying how happy she was yay! I actually cried a little, just listening to her talk. I mean, I feel really happy that she’s happy, and that she could celebrate her birthday with so many people. It’s so heart warming! And she’s so generous, it’s so uncommon. ><

She’s sleeping now. Happy 80th birthday nai nai!

Because you love her.

June 13, 2009

Why did you let her break your heart?

NSD

June 10, 2009

You’re young, your live life on the fast lane, but sometimes don’t you just want to settle down? Right now consistency is what I need, but I’m not ready to let go of some things.

I find it quite difficult to find a balance between work and play, it’s always at the extremes and then something bad happens (yes, too much work has shown to have a negative effect on my health too heh!). Never have I been able to find a balance to do well in both areas, so this is a really big challenge for me, and for people who want to accomplish it with me too (I’m sorry ><).

I will have to be a better study partner by knowing my stuff, contributing, and not just keep asking questions.

Must.

Amazing day =)

June 8, 2009

The day has passed, and I have almost lost myself completely.

zheng feng in pin-hole specs

What a day, what time, what moments, what strange magic is this?

In the past 24 hours or longer, I have:

-woken up to a beautiful face with the loudest eyes and the longest lashes.

-broken my liquid diet and ate hokkien mee from Adam Road, curry chicken mee sua from HK Cafe, almost two tubs of B&J Ice cream (Chocolate Fudge/Turtle Soup/One Brownie Cheesecake), mummy-cooked fish porridge, 1.5 Curry Puffs from Old Chang Kee, some snacks here and there…

-ate tons of pills and had difficulty every time I attempted swallowing! Sighhh! =)

-packed my room and threw away an entire garbage bag filled of random items…

-licked hands and counted number of times of ___ HAHA=D

-checked out bikes at the bike store, altered feng’s two Levi’s jeans at Coronation, and bought 4 tubs of B&J Ice cream to add to the collection at home haha such an impulse buy! =)

-taken tons of photographs while bathing in the aircon in the living room.

-read little, done little enough to feel accomplished, but felt enough to feel this tiny little heart thump so loudly against this body — it’s so amazing.

Thank you for today, I really loved it!

You make me feel magical… wind of my life! =)

Fly back to me, soon. =)

zheng feng pointing at moth

Federer’s grand slam goal! WHEE =)

June 8, 2009

Feng and my random joke during rolland garros finals:
A: Hey, have you ‘fed the ra’coons? (FED-ERER-coons)
B: Yes.
A: Oh okay, you’re so cute! You’re ’so darling’ (Soderling)

Haha so Federer feeds raccoons and Soderling is such a darling!!! Hahaha… =D. If you don’t get it, it’s alright! It’s not a very important joke. We’re just being innovative with their names, that’s all. =)

Haha ^^ YAY FOR FED FED/ FEDEX’s win in this grand slam! =D

I think our Federer dance really did help him ace today’s game, though he was still a little scratchy. =) Go! Go Federer~

Feng’s rolling about in my roller chair wearing this helpful black holey spectacles thing – pinhole specs? to perfect his eyesight (which is near 100% perfect!) hahaha it’s like dark sunglasses and it feels so inappropriate because it’s 12am now at home and it’s bed time soon and he looks so funny in them! So nonsensical. =) Haha, I feel shy… ^^ He just HAD to find them around the house and pose in them…

‘Haha dear I can see myself, I look quite cool eh…’ he just said HAHAHA!!! =)  Now he’s checking out stuff in my dad’s room, like a curious little boy. I’m spying on him, as you can tell. He’s flipping thorugh DVDs now, haha and he just lifted the specs onto his forehead to take a better look at the cover of one of the CDs. Wonder what it is! =) What if it’s a horror movie. *Gasp* Dieeeee! He’s looking at my brother’s games now.. and lifting the spectacles above his head again… He’s so strangely attractive like that. Heh.

Oh man, so high! How to sleep later on… =)

OH NO HE’S COMING BACK INTO THE ROOM!!!!

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (This is to prevent him from reading above while I’m still typing)

Will post some pictures of federer that I took from the TV just now =)…  maybe tomorrow into this post?

He keeps posing with the specs… It’s disturbingly adorable!!!

OMG STOP IT =D

GO AND BATHE!

Nyaaaaaaaaaaaah! =D

Pre/post teeth extraction days

June 7, 2009

Good morning world!
It’s strange to be having miso soup so early in the morning =). Makes me feel quite Japanese! Now all I’m missing is some good tempura ebi and unagi rolls! Ai shi te ru ^^ !!! Haha… I meant Ooishi des neh! =D

Children’s reading/craft session at Jurong West Library
I realized that I had forgot to blog about our Children’s reading/crafts session at Jurong West Library on Thursday! The old Sec 4 CIP group consisting of Jess, Paul, ShiTing, Geri and I met up again to volunteer for friends of the library. Rachel and Siqi couldn’t make it because of their H3 exams, hope they did well. =) Anyway, if you’re wondering, I had my Operation on Friday so I could still speak properly on Thursday hahaha xD

We prepared materials until three, and then the session started. Had to put on this white long sleeved friends of the library shirt which I wore through out and after the session! It was so warm, so I had to change out of the shirt I came with. It’s nice and comfy though, and it’s been a long time since I’ve worn anything long sleeved. I think it helped me feel more comfortable during the session, mmhmm.  It’s drying now, waiting to be used again for Monday’s session. =D

It felt so liberating to be reading a book with Paul’s help, to see the way the children can’t help but sneak a smile shyly at a funny part. So adorable. =) It’s almost as though you’ve stepped into a new atmosphere, your voice and your gestures become such acute tools of communication that every single sound you utter or every clap and wave has to be absolutely appropriate. Great story tellers have such a flair at their control. =)

After finishing with the books, we got down to decorating paper masks (paul’s idea) and book marks (Jess’ idea if I’m not wrong). They were such a shy bunch of children! Hope more children will turn up for tomorrow’s/the last session. =) After that Paul and Jess left first as Shiting, Geri and I settled at Mos to eat (okay it was just me), and also so that they could finish their friend’s birthday card. So sweet. =)

Post wisdom teeth extraction days
More about my gum condition! The numbness in my mouth/tongue wore off completely yesterday morning, and thankfully I still don’t feel much pain. Only the bottom of my right cheek hurts when I poke it really deep, so I guess I’m still pinchable at this state. Quick!!! Pinch me!!! You may never have the chance to pinch a live fat human-hamster ever again! =) Or alternatively you can go pinch Zi Bing =D hahaha, hope she doesn’t read my blog. ^^ If you’re reading, YOU’RE SO CUTE!!! Believe me, she is.

Okay, digressing. Anyway, thanks Tam and Vivian for the advice! The surgeon actually told me that some people have 5 wisdom teeth O.O, and that even though we normally have four, we need not pluck all four out if they don’t pose as a threat to the other innocent teeth. =) I guess I’m lucky I could have my teeth removed while I was sleeping, because the sounds must have been terrifying. All the best Tam, to your future operations =), hopefully you’ll pull out the remaining three when you’re sleeping, and you’re so strong Vivian for having braved through something this scary. =) What guts! =D

I used to think that not many people had to pull out wisdom teeth, so I thought I was the unlucky few who had to remove four, but I guess I was wrong. Mummy had to pull out hers under local anesthesia too, and so did some of my relatives and quite a few friends. It’s quite special, I think, because it’s become an experience that almost everyone will get to experience in their life time, and that’s almost like a similarity we are bonded with. =)

Wisdom teeth – all you need to know!
And so, out of my curiosity, I did some research on wisdom teeth. =D Just some facts to throw into our general knowledge:

- They are the third and final set of molars that most people get in their late teens/ early twenties.

- They can present potential problems when they are misaligned – The two wisdom teeth on my lower jaw were aligned horizontally, believe it or not. Isn’t that freaky!!! 90 degrees off centre. They sometimes lean toward the second molars make those teeth more vulnerable to decay by entrapping plaque and debris.

-  They can be entrapped completely/ “impacted” within the soft tissue and/or the jawbone or only partially erupt through the gum. Partially erupted teeth allow for an opening for bacteria to enter around the tooth and cause an infection, which results in pain, swelling, jaw stiffness and illnesses etc. They are also more prone to tooth decay and gum disease because it’s difficult to brush/floss them well.

- However, don’t think that impacted teeth don’t need to be extrated! All wisdom teeth are encouraged to be extracted to avoid a more painful or more complicated extraction in the future. Removal is easier in young people, when the wisdom teeth roots are not yet fully developed and the bone is less dense (Yay!).

- A wisdom tooth that is fully erupted through the gum can be extracted easily as any other tooth. However, one that is underneath the gums and embedded in the jawbone will require an incision into the gums and then removal of the portion of bone that lies over the tooth. The tooth will be extracted in small sections rather than removed in one piece to minimize the amount of bone that needs to be removed to get the tooth out (such as mine! Hee). 

- Bleeding, swelling, pain/soreness will occur during the first 24 hours after surgery. The patient will be prescibed with antibotics, pain medications, and have to go on a liquid diet for the first 2-3 days. Continue to brush your teeth gently and avoid the teeth directly next to the wound. Mouth wash should be avoided to prevent irritation of the gums.

- Facial swelling should be treated with heat after the first 24 hours of icing. Rinsing your mouth with warm salt water should help speed up the healing process, and clean your mouth of any bacteria to replace mouth rinses. Complete healing doesn’t occur until nearly a month later, but your wounds would have healed enough in a week to become reasonably comfortable. =)

- Cost? Expensive!!! Varies between clinics.

Yesterday
was a nice, happy day. I went for tuition in the morning, and it was the first time that Dear had seen me after the operation, and he was laughing and poking at my cheeks during class, taking photographs and all. I was just completely -_-” at first, but started to accept that I’d have to deal with it sooner or later! Looking like a fat hamster is okay now =)

I ate bean curd for lunch, and dear ate our favourite peanut tang yuan and bean curd combo! *Cries* Felt quite sore that I couldn’t eat any solid foods yet. When we went back to his place, he took good care of me (and my hamster cheeks!). Felt so shy >< While I was still walking into the living room, he had already rushed into the kitchen to prepare two bags of ice before we went up and then he instructed me to lie on the bed and proceeded to prepare two walls (out of his two pillows) and kind of balanced the ice bags against my cheeks. He timed 20 minutes, and gosh it was so cold! Much colder than what I felt when I did it at home by myself. I was squished in that uncomfortable position for 20 minutes and my cheeks were numb… -_-

After that it felt shiock though! Because the heat was coming back and I had this tingling sensation all over my face! ^^ Ooo! And around three, dear cycled to the petrol station and brought two tubs of ice cream, and we shared a pint! Yum Yum Yum. It helps in my recovery, or at least that’s what the doctor told me. =) Heehee! What heaven.

For dinner, he specially told his aunt to cook mian sian soup for me, and it happified me so much hahaha it was my first non-pure liquid meal since the operation! What an accomplishment to be able to eat starch again. =) Did some work and dear got worked up over a math question… I think the answer is wrong! He tried again and again and even double checked with class mates but still he can’t get the answer. =( How frustrating right? Hmm, don’t worry. Don’t stop! Keep doing =) Don’t let it discourage you.

Left at around ten for home, and then I iced my cheeks for forty minutes while watching this scary Japanese movie about plastic surgery. It was really a horror film, not the ghost-type of movie but the type that’s eerie and awkward and very unnatural.

It was about this 23 year old woman who had been unsatisfied with her appearance since she was ten. So she approached this beautiful surgeon to do plastic surgery on her. And the scary part was how she constantly begged for more plastic surgery over and over again… it was like she was possessed.The movie was so graphic. Usually I’m not afraid to see operations on human bodies on television, like baby births and etc, but this was just too much. I was shivering so badly after one of the most scariest scenes which was a flash back of the patient on the operating table. Haha, I was in such a hurry to change the channel with my eyes closed. >< 

If it wasn’t for dear’s comforting smses, I wouldn’t have been able to sleep I think. Thanks dear, sorry I’m such a fraidy cat and can’t watch horror movies with you. /_\ Actually, I can watch horror movies with you, but you must offer me protection like pillows and blankets to cover my face when a scary image appears. Hahaha, can’t stand it how I’m always so up for thrills even though I’m such a scaredy cat.

Today
Anyway, it’s the afternoon now! Time to go take my medicines and pills.

Oh and Dear’s coming over soon! =) =) =)

I can’t wait! =D