Smiley jumpy happy-y

I owe this place an update!

But before anything, … !!!

Ahaha =)

I’ll finish up tomorrow!

CLAIRE SAYS HI, JIA HUGGLE YAY (:

To hearten =)

verb (used with object)
to give courage or confidence to; cheer.

1. I believe in miracles. The way they come when they’re least expected to, out of no where, crashing in front of you, laying there. It’s almost like a seed, such an opportunity waiting to be taken in, such invisible potential you can just imagine. It comes in a small package, but that’s just the beginning. Bed it, sayang it, carefully, gently, it takes time. Shower it with not just water but tenderness, and it will sprout and soar and emerge, blooming in your heart to be a flower. A spark. And that’s when you can feel it pulsing through, when you can finally acknowledge it’s existence, when you finally give thanks. The miracle is here, it’s here – for you. All you have to do is to embrace it.

2. I am thankful for

- the inconsistent weather and consistent temperature fluctuations
- the splitting headaches, ulcers, cough, flu, sickness
- the lack of sufficient sleep
- the mood swings that come rolling in
- the experience of dealing with insensitive acquaintances
- the complicatedness of growing up in a female body
- the lack of sufficient money (due to my own irresponsible expenditure)
- the stress

because it’s from all these that I’ve learn how to be stronger, and to appreciate the greater things in life =), such as

- indispensable company of great friends
- the amazing power that love can bring
- managing to go through each day with strength
- having enough money to spend on necessities
- good (or shall i say, improved) time management
- a good heart, people with good hearts, kind intentions
- happiness and contentment

=)

3.  The world is so full of action-reaction situations. Any small gesture or sound or word or image is able to evoke sensations and arouse emotion. If not for the existence of 1, would there be 2, or 3, or 4, or 5? (You get what I mean) Without the mind would there be anything at all? It seems like we’re all characters in a plot, that fate has tied us together into a dead knot, that everything is destined to happen as nature’s planned, and we obediently act out the course. What a meaningless life? I disagree.

This life we have… it’s in our hands. Fate is fate, but we are we. I am me. I choose my life, based on decisions from choices, based on my tastes and preferences, based on my moods, on my needs, on my behaviour, that is joined by your decisions, your tastes, your moods, your needs, that are joined by many others. Is that still fate to you? I hope not. Youre life is in your hands, everything is in your hands. The only harm you are doing to yourself can only be doubt. Be amazed at the weight these arms can carry, be amazed at the amount a heart can feel. Don’t doubt your own ability to be amazing,

because you already are. =)

Wait!

I’ll blog soon. Just give me some time.

(:

Hmm! ^.^

Just wanted to say (to everyone who has been there for me in one way or another..)

THANK YOU! (:

For:

- listening and sharing with me
- showering me with love and hugs whenever wherever with no exact reason
- being great company, spending time with me during breaks/after class
- tolerating my lao ah ma mood swings
- tolerating my overly hyper smile-liness
- giving in to my demands (whether reasonable or not)
- having nice and sweet thoughts about me, being concerned for me *blush*
- staying persistently optimistic when I remain stubbornly pessimistic and eventually cheering me up aha
- helping me out with little favours (like tearing tissue paper…)
- lending me money for meals ><” I’ll pay up soon…
- encouraging me and helping me with school work
- taking care of my health and my well being
- loving me…

there’s really so much more!

It’s impossible for me to keep track of the number of times people have gave me part of their smiles and happified my day, so the least I can do right now is to be grateful, and feel blessed to have all of you in my life >< Some of us aren’t even that close, but we’re always there for one another to lend each other a helping hand (and I hope it’s not due to obligation or anything), and it’s really heart warming -meltie melt meltzzz- (:

It’s the way I want life to be all the time (!!!). It makes life so meaningful.

Xie xie da jia. ^^

From school, on the way to mary mount. It made my day, along with the one who watched it with me. =)

Ill but alive

My brain is fried. It’s taking me a whole lot of energy and concentration even just to type, so this post might be the most disorganized set of words you’ve read all day. Forgive me, I can’t be bothered to follow the status quo and everything because my nose is running away from me/my throat feels like it’s sataying and my forehead is on fire!!! … Aha! I exaggerate. =) But most of it is true -_-.

I wonder if there is/will be a person who is willing to let me understand them completely. Everyone wears a mask, however thin/thick. They do and I know this. Even those who don’t want to are sometimes put into situations where they have to, which is actually almost all the time for certain people due to whatever reasons. I think it’d be fascinating to be able to understand a person completely, to have a full grasp of his or her thoughts, feelings, emotions. You may say it’s not important but it is to me. It’s crazy, but I want to. It makes me feel like I could be the one to cure every hurting emotion, to share that understanding, to know what to do what and make it absolutely perfect. Must everyone have some secrets that are only kept for themselves? Is it hard to trust someone completely with your everything? It is… but it’s not impossible.

Most of the time I show so many different sides of myself depending on who I’m with (it happens naturally) and almost everytime I’m sure that I’m revealing my most private thoughts and emotions, but there is still quite a few parts of myself that haven’t found the opportunity to emerge yet, so they’re kind of still in hiding. But it isn’t deliberate. I do want to share them one day, with someone who wants to know every single thing about me. I think it’d be nice to find someone who would be like that, and I think such people can only ever exist as friends, and not lovers. It’s difficult to explain… but I think it makes alot of sense. The likelihood of that person being a complete strange to you at first makes things even more logical.

I think that some people deserve more love than they get. They deserve to be showered with a million chocolate roses on their bedside in the morning, to be the ‘ideal’ to their special someone because they’re so great, and etc. It would be nice to see more people recieving the amount of love that they deserve, because this world needs more love to go around. People are so full of themselves, so afraid of letting go of their pride even just to praise others and be humble, so afraid of losing, always wanting to win. How long more will I need to wait until I see these kind of perfection before my eyes? I can’t wait to see, I can’t. I wonder if I’m giving you enough, if I’m giving them enough, if I’m giving everyone enough love that they need (from me)…

I need to sleep soon. I’m really really ill this time round and my body hasn’t had to chance to recuperate yet. I hope I’ll be alright by tomorrow afternoon. =) Fever + Flu + Sore throat, go away go away go away!!!

Throat paaaainnn =/

I forgot to mention that I’ve had a sore throat since two days ago and it hurts. =(

Salt water treatment tonight! =)

Our own fairytale

Anyong! ^^ (hello!)

The past few days have felt so different, in a good way =)

I feel as though I’ve been floating around instead of walking, like my head’s not on my shoulders but some where in the sky. I don’t feel dazed, but I feel lighter, happier, more optimistic. I also get more excited over the smallest things, and I smile a whole lot more than I usually do I think, which hence makes jia feel = happy! =) haha =D

It’s probably due to that same old feeling I get everytime I finish a great TV drama! And in this case, Boys Over Flowers, the Korean version of 流星花园. =) Rented the CDs and finished all 25 episodes with bao ber in four days I think, and there was this night when we watched til 3am + in the morning O_O. Shows how addictive it is huh! =)

The plot is more or less the same as the Taiwanese version, but there are quite a few significant changes which I thought were really refreshing. The characters also gradually grew on me, and I especially like the female lead Geum Jan Di because of her adorable character! =) And bao ber likes Yi Jeong! (For all the wrong reasons…=_=).

For all those who have yet to watch it, please watch the show in Korean because it gives a completely different effect, more raw, more real, more touching. =) I would love to blog about how she made me feel through out the series, but I’ll wait until I know some people have finished, because I don’t think it’s nice to give any spoilers. ><

The songs in the show are also tremendously sticky and we’ve been singing two particular songs again and again in school wherever whenever. They are Howl’s Love U and Kim Hyun Joong’s acoustic solo of Because I’m Stupid. They are both slow songs, and yes, it’s titled that way! Haha! =D I couldn’t believe that IT was THE song that bao ber fell in love with. While watching, we had already guessed that it was sang by Hyun Joong, and we were right! Yipee. =) The korean pronounciation’s tricky at first, but easy to catch after you keep practising, and then it becomes addictive. =D

I think fairytales do exist in real life. Many times, we watch shows like this and feel that they won’t come true for us, that they’re so far from reality and we have to brush that thought away before it disappoints us. But that’s really not always the case.

Miracles can be possible if we create them for ourselves. For those who sit and wait for something amazing, give up your day dreaming, and be the one to create something beautiful, for your loved one and for yourself. We all have that potential in ourselves to find love, to give love and to appreciate it’s beauty. =)

I think that’s why I find shows like this to be so encouraging. They might exaggerate on the detail and settings, but when you look at it more carefully, you’ll realize that many little things are reflected in your own life/or could happen to anyone, even you. =) Nothing is impossible – Even the littlest actions could have the most explosive impacts on one’s small heart. I know, because I’ve felt it before, too many times, that now I know it’s actually real and possible. It’s touching. I believe you’ve felt it too, mmhmm?

So I believe that we all have the potential to create our own fairy tales. All we need to do is to…

Dream Believe Wish Jia you! ^^

Fighting! =D

i love the weekends

and…

I’m more than just a little too crazy

about you.

i want tonight, again

The only thing more amazing than this, right now, would be if I could have it go on forever.

It’s raining now, but I feel so warm inside.

I love this feeling when I’m with you =)

Happy memories =) <3

I’m blogging about a few events that have happened through the week that are either 1) really nice, sweet and create happy feelings when I recall them, or 2) very special and new to me. I have some photographs from some events so this might turn out to be a very photo-heavy post. Oh well! The more the merrier right? =) I shall begin!

1. Welcome home silver =)

Silver finally returned home after a three day two night stay at the pet hospital where she was kept under tight observation for any new signs of seizures. She seemed completely normal when she came back, but her panting was still really quick, and I spent about an hour just being with her that night. She really is extremely extremely friendly, just like beagles should be.

She now gets to run around the front of the house in the morning, and it’s made her much happier. I think mum’s finally given in and doesn’t want to be too strict with her! =) She flipped the bin outside at least once again, and I’m thinking of telling mom to be less stubborn and to relocate it.

Something really cute happened the day after she came back! Baobei came over, and he played with her and cuddled her and just let her pounce and step and do everything to him. It gave me a nice feeling everytime I knew that they were having fun with each other, and it makes me happy to see her so happy. =) He was trying to do this strange quick-step action to give her a shock and everytime he did it she would pounce on him! Cute =) Happy =D !

Haha, it makes me really happy. =) We’re still monitoring her to make sure the symptoms don’t return, and that she’s completely healed.

2. Mango(oooooo!)steens! =)

I never knew we had a mangosteen tree in our backyard until I saw these things lying around on the table in the living room.

Sounds pretty amazing doesn’t it, for a tree that’s only about 5 and a half years old. The tree was first planted when we bought the land, and now that it’s mature and producting fruits, mum collects the mangosteens when they’re ripe and we get to eat them! I shared one with baobei the other day and it’s so so sweet, much sweeter than those you buy from the markets even and even though they’re small, they’re really quite a blessing. =)

Silver eats them too (against mum’s wishes of course) =P. Even she can’t resist them! ^^ I find it so cool, because it makes me feel so domestic, and I think I shall grow reliant on them to produce more for us! Heehee.

3. Basketball session in school

Baobei had two sessions of basketball with a few friends during the holidays, and though I didn’t join them, it was fun to just sit at the steps and watch them play. It was also fun to photograph them under the bright lights, and watch baobei do some really amazing lay ups and have the time of his life. =) I said it before, and I’ll say it again… I’ll never get tired of watching you play on court or off court because you’re spectacular! =)

Anyway, diverging from my self indulgence (heehee), I think it’s possible to analyze a person’s skills through mere observing, but you can only completely see or ‘feel’ someone’s capability when you’re playing with them, which makes me think that this sport is pretty overwhelming because of the amount of variety of skill and technique that differentiates a player from another. It just feels that way to me. So intense, so fiery, competitive, and glorifying with every scored basket. Are most ball sports like that? I’m not sure.

I realize that I’ve always had a thing for it, even before secondary school. I used to shoot with my dad/mom almost weekly since I was what, 8? and I remember my PE teacher in NYPS saying I could consider joining the sport CCA (but I didn’t want to) since Pri 3. In sec 1, I bought mangas about the sport, and felt everything about it to be just absolutely stunning and cool etc, and some classmates and I would spend hours just shooting at the courts near our classroom after class with a ball we stole that belonged to the school tea… (you get the idea). =) I can say that I’ve had a history of feeling passionate for the sport, but only after meeting you, did I learn that it’s not as simple as it seemed to be.

It’s a sport, but it can mean much more, because you simply can’t teach heart, and I think that’s what makes you playing basketball so life changing/ special to me. =)

4. Cafe Cartel, TYSVM (thank you so very much!)

Being big fans of Cafe cartel’s pork ribs for a long time already (since march 2008 when baobei first introduced it to me ^^), we visited the outlet at Bishan once again, craving yummy food. This time, like all the other few times, we ordered their speciality pork ribs, with iced peach tea, free flow of toasted bread with butter and soup of the day, and tucked in happily…

Nom nom nom nom nom… *chews*

Yaaaarrrrrmmmmmeeeeeeeeeee~ ~ ~

But one thing was different, because we had finally filled in THE CARD ….

with enough stickers!!! =)

This card is part of a Cafe Cartel promotion since Oct 08, where you are entitled a sticker from each order of Pork Ribs and when you’ve collected enough/7 stickers, you can have a plate of their new honeybaked crispy pork ribs for FREE! As you can see, since the promotion started, we visited the shop twice in oct (first month), one time in dec, twice in jan, once in apr and the last time this month!

And here’s a picture of the yummy dish, which proved to be as perfectly rendered also.

=D ! =D ! =D !!!

I still have a liking for the original pork ribs though, but this was delicious too! Everyone should go try it when they have the chance to. We cleared both dishes, along with a basket of bread (we used to do 3 haha), soup, butter and tea, and were stuffed to the high heavens afterwards. I guess I’ve had quite enough pork ribs for a month.

Til the next!!! ^^

5. Fun with boxing gloves

This was really cute, really really cute.

Darryl got baobei a pair of boxing gloves from the UK trip last year as a present, and I still remember how he looked like when he first put them on – SHUAI! ^.^ And so we happened to be walking around in one of the sports shops at Velocity some time back when dear noticed a pair of boxing gloves that were much bigger than his lying on the shelf next to him. He proceeded to try them on, saying they were bigger etc, and I couldn’t help but snap a picture first…

There. Boxing champion #1 from cutest punches festival in Lalaland! =D Ahaha

And then we proceeded to browse through other sports shops, until we saw another pair of boxing gloves, and dear proceeded to try them on too.

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MONSTER GLOVES!!!

They were some 5 times larger than the normal gloves !!! The sponge on a single glove is larger than his entire face. It was so funny !!! =D Hahaha, and definitely worth remembering, because I haven’t seen anything this dramatic for a long time already. =) Baobei… you look so tiny. =) =D

6. The furry little stray

Baobei and I were waiting for tuition to start one evening in the holidays, and we noticed that the boss of the centre had bought food for a little stray cat, and put it into a tray outside to feed him. She left after a while, and I went out to play with him, and boy was he friendly! The moment I had stepped out, he purred at me and started brushing himself against my feet repeatedly, walking back and forth. I knelt down to stroke him and before I knew it I was so caught up with everything that I was tickling him and just playing with him. =)

Dear helped us take some pictures. =) I especially love the second photograph because you can tell he’s looking right in baobei’s direction and he’s raising his little paw! And the last photograph is priceless because I gently squished up his face and it’s all small and adorable and though it looks a little uncomfortable, ^^” but he looks so cute right! ^^ Aww! Like a little bunny… =D 

I think he’s so cute, and I hope he’ll be there tomorrow when we go for math. =) I can’t wait to play with him again!!

8. Rainbows on earth

I love these.

It’s not photoshopped, and I didn’t alter the contrast or sharpen the colours, because I wanted it to remain this way. It’s all 100% natural goodness, captured by my trusty camera on a good hot sunny saturday morning at the bus stop outside baobei’s place/aljunied park.

It’s lovely isn’t it? How rainbows like these just run themselves over the seats or the ground as the light shines through glass panels (in this case, at the bus stop). I see them quite alot, and I still think it’s beautiful. It almost, almost looks like it’s coming out of my hand… =)

Somehow they appear more often around Aljunied than in any other place I know.

^^

So I secretly think it just might be you. =)

Meep! ^^

Harrrloooo there! ^^

Spent a fun/random two hours with Oce just now at her place before we parted ways to our own afternoon fun. =) Thanks for the company Oce =)

The afternoon was spent with baobei dearest. =) We’re back at his place now resting from all the walking and laughing all over Orchard. I’m feeling much much more comfy now that my butt and legs are well rested! -grins happily-

Ice Age III was awesome!!! =D

We were laughing loudly through out because of the endless supply of puns and jokes, and the ‘Crazy’ squirrel, his favourite! ^^ hahaha, and Sid are such drop-dead funny characters. It’s mad highness! They rule comedy. 8D

I’ve also fallen in love with baby Ice Age animals like the baby mammoth awwww, and baby T-rex dinosaurs. ^^ Their voices are the cutest in the world, and I gushed everytime they made those soft little baby noises that sound like ‘eerhh’ or ‘ooo!’ or ‘nyaa’ or or or… ahhhhhh there’s so mannnnyyyy ! They make me feel so ticklish inside heeheehee, it’s so cute and adorable and happifyingggg yayee ^^!

I found some pictures of them. They overwhelm me… @_@

The cute little baby mammoth that touched everyone’s heart!

Ohmygosh her EYES! ^_^ They’re big and beautiful like my baobei’s right =)? Lalalaaa~ ^^ Save it for yourself!!!  I took so long to find this photo and cropped her out/magnified her. She’s going to be on my dp for some time! =)

The 3 T-rex babies, which don’t look that flattering here but are so adorable in the show! =) I like the one who wears the shell on his head sometimes in the show =D

Baobei kindly waited with me in the theater for any scenes after the credits, but there were none ^^”, so we ended up leaving the place last hahaha oopsie =). So if anyone’s wondering, you can leave the theatre right after the animals stop dancing and the credits roll.

I felt that this was the best in the trilogy (Ice Age has survived extinction! bwahaha =D), and the effects and sounds were fantastic and animation’s just pure genious, so go catch it for a good laugh. =)

Meep meep meep … woaarrrrrrrr ^^! *Gushes*

Now, back to lovie. =)

Hungry girl

(This honestly has nothing to do with exams even though it sounds so much like it).

You disappoint me.

I really hate it when I don’t recieve what I deserve. Last time I wasn’t quite sure how much I deserved but now I think I know. Yes, it’s true that you might not recieve the same amount you give, and you should just be contented with what you have, but I’m sitting here realizing that I may have given close to 80 but I’m getting just 20, and I feel like I’ve been short-changed of my emotions. A part of me is upset, because it feels like I shouldn’t have given anything at all, so I won’t be expecting anything back in return. But I (know that I) shouldn’t be thinking this way, because it’s wrong. Right now I’m just mad at myself for feeling this way (it’s rather uncalled for …), and even more mad at myself because I can’t concentrate on memorizing Bio. Nothing’s going in because I’m feeling so worked up, and I feel rather helpless about it. The thought that I might be able to concentrate better if I didn’t feel this disappointed is nagging at the back of my head and making me feel even worse. My goodness.

Emotions aside,

- I haven’t had breakfast, and it’s already time for lunch. Who in the world is kind enough to get brunch for me? I’m afraid that I might just end up starving to death on this chair in the living room because our kitchen is out of food, and I’m too worked up and lazy to get lunch. I will eat anything right now.

- I need company. If only Claire could come over and just be her(cute, likable)self. Or anybody or anything. Just to sit in the living room and watch television or use my lap top or swim in the pool while I study for Bio. It’s hard to describe how it makes me feel more motivated to study, and so much less alone in the world. Now that everyone’s finished (mostly everyone) CTs, the world seems a whole lot more distant now, and quieter.

- The idea of Post CT plans made me rather happy. But I feel like cancelling everything and just spending time at home alone, cooking the days away. It’s therapeutic, and so is eating (good food fills not just a stomach but an empty soul)! Ahh! Speaking of cooking again, I want to bbq lobsters soon, if I can get enough people to come over to eat them for me. =) I think I don’t want to go out after Bio tomorrow.

- I miss France. The knee-high soft snow that gathers at the back of the hotel. The night when it was snowing and I stood and I felt the cold air on my cheeks. I miss the landscape so much. It’s probably the most beautiful place I’ve seen and been to, and it’s one of the best ski resorts in the world too! I also miss seeing the Glaciers at New Zealand (the land of the kiwis), which was just drop-dead gorgeous. Imagine the water of a flowing river (bigger, much bigger) freeze into ice as it’s about to crash onto land, and that’s the general structure. Amazing. And I feel lucky to have seen it before global warming got worse, cause apparently it’s losing its structure now. I also also miss China Trip/Taiwan Trip! I want to go overseas after As to somewhere beautiful again. =)