Wave your poms poms

Let’s gooooo,

Artists^.^ !

*paint-draw-sculpt-print-design*

the noise in silence

So many times in a single day when I find it hard to breathe

Exhausted

Felt so listless on the bus ride home. Located an empty seat on the bus and just threw myself onto the cushion. Didn’t move a muscle through out the ride and stoned at night sky. My eyeballs were like balls of fire ready to pop out of their sockets! The thought is scary, but it really did feel that way. These eyes have been annoying me since the morning  – hurting, tearing uncontrollably everytime I close them for awhile. I’m thankful that it’s only a few minutes away til they can have a good long rest.

Looking forward to breakfast date tomorrow morning at Macs! Yayee =D

never again

There are times when I feel pity towards people who have given up on maintaining good relationships with old friends. It’s sad, don’t you think, how we sometimes let our differences get in the way… that’s why I think it’s important to maintain good relationships. Even if you don’t meet up often, or can’t meet up, you still show each other that you care, and that makes the difference.

A few days back, a good friend told me that the only opinions you need to care about are those from people that care about you. The opinions of others don’t have to matter, ever. The mean, judgemental things they say mean nothing. What’s done cannot be undone, but what was felt then is still raw to me, so I do still feel the emotions from each experience clearly. It took me awhile to believe what she said, but I think I’m gradually learning to understand it entirely. I hate wanting to go against my own morals, but certain things have been wearing me out for really long, and I think that it does make sense to just… give up on certain.. people that really don’t care at all (at least not anymore) and expect nothing less in return.

I’ve never felt this way until today. It creeps the hell out of me.. and it makes me feel so helpless.. you have no idea…

my dear wind-wind,

‘and in case you are wondering,
you are like a hurricane to me.
Your violence is beautiful
and your center sweet.

and in case you are wondering,
you are everything to me.’

Fuzzy healing powers

Get well soon, my beloved love (:  !

In the mean time, here’s more virtual hugs to warm you on this cold night, and for everyone who needs one -

Huggy wuggy huggy wuggy huggy wuggy koo koo koo~

 

I placed this photo last because it looks really familiar. The stare from those eyes!!! It looks like yours.

Haha huggy wuggy smooshy you! (:

Be strong, I’m here with you (even though I’m sick too =P) =)

Worn out

I’m not free.

I’m not cheap either.

I do favors out of good intentions, and I hope they’re at least perceived that way.

And just in case you think my actions are becoming habitual, that it’s all a robotic process, then you’re wrong. I’m here to remind you that I have feelings too, and that I can make my own choices.

Don’t take me for granted.

Beeyooteefoo! (:

Here’s a series of photographs that I’ve been eager to post up since a week back, but didn’t have the time or energy to do so until today. I guess the different content can all fall naturally under the category of ‘things that are not meant to be explained or understood but simply appreciated for its beauty’. (: That’s really long! xD

So here they are for your viewing pleasure (: !

Occasion: The first trip with Kevy to the school biodiversity pond

 

The colours are completely natural but they look so surreal to me…

Occasion: Watching the sunset with Oce at the watermelon steps

That’s Oce! (:

Occasion: Baober’s garden (credits to baober, yes yes (: )

The lime butterfly (:

The forget-me-not (: !

The end.

Hope you liked them as much as I did! (: *Throws confetti*

It’s time for bed. =)

Making lists

Just some things to be thankful for (:

Romance Movies – Watching movies make me feel like I’m living in a completely different zone. I can almost always feel the flurry of emotions surging through the characters. Isn’t it bizarre how our emotions are weaved to suit theirs? Nothing comes quite close to that feeling.  Some scenes are biting, but exceptional all the same, and I welcome it (:. I think making movies is like making art sometimes. How I wish one day I could make my own film (:

The sky – Such a canvas with endless possibilities. It has never, ever failed to amaze me each day, how something so high up above, untouchable, can be so beautiful?

School lessons – As much as it induces frustration and/or undesired sleepiness and leaves me feeling bewildered sometimes, it can actually be rather appealing! Like how art class almost always makes me feel ecstatic (: I sometimes feel antsy right before lessons because well there could be the possibility of it being 1) pleasant or 2) completely banal, but it’s good to be optimistic and I think we shouldn’t carry the mindset that school is a dread/complete waste of our lives/unnecessary because education is imperative to our development! And we can also look forward to being in the presence of few treasured friends (:

Friends -  All of your care makes me feel so buoyant sometimes (: I am truly indebted to all of you for nursing me through my emotional/physical wounds, and being there right where I need you, when I need you. (: Thank you, each and every one of you angels. (:

My bed – for without it I cannot find a softer/doughy, more serene place to recuperate. Oh dear bed, you know not how much you mean to me. You know me so well (: And so does the sofa, the other beds around the house, and occasionally my larger soft toys…

Love – such a ineffable, intense, tender, …necessary feeling of affection. I have practically been reared by it – first killed and then restored, time after time. I grow abiding, powerless as I allow it to flourish. I am no longer the same, but I don’t repel it – it’s human nature to crave it (I think), because it makes me feel whole. I love to love, and I love to be loved, and there is much more to just a chemical reaction between two bodies of matter… it goes deeper than bones.

Abuser

Verbal abuse can hurt as much as physical abuse.

Hey!

Are you sure you’re normal?
Human, you sure?

…You’re not lying to me 24/7?

You could be…an alien (: (: (: , or an ANGEL !!! O:
from space or heaven !
either would be cool right?

Yea!

but I can’t decide.
I can’t decide on which you should be…
it’d be cool to have wings I guess
but it’s not so important /:

Anyway

I can’t quite tell
what makes you special
exactly
but
don’t be upset, please don’t be upset

):
because that would make me upset

let me try it again.
I think I know what makes you special
what has always made you more special than anyone else
and (I’m not finished!!!)
I know what makes me feel that way about you
that feeling – I still get butterflies when I see you! ><
I think I've said it so many times but i'll say it,

again !

You're so amazing
you're so unreal !

and everything about you is that way to me (:

=)

wo men zui xiang yao de dong xi
zhi wo zai xi huan de ren shou shang

gei wo ni de ai, rang wo pei zhe ni qu wei laaaaaaaai
gei wo ni de ai shou la zhe shou bu fang kaaaaaaaai ~~~

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Take this whole new week as an opportunity to accomplish something for yourself

jia you da jia (:

Will you live with me?

Don’t you know ?

I love this feeling when I’m with you

I love this feeling when I’m with you

I love this feeling when I’m with you !!!

I s   t r u e   l o v e   t r u l y  t h e r e ,  m y l o v e ?

Y e s ,        i f  y o u r  warm heart is…

be with me

m y   b  e  l  o  v  e  d  l o v e ,

t h a t  m y  s m i l e

…may not fade.

love

I have done almost a hundred silly things because of
I have forced myself to grow so much more mature, but more emotional because of
I have restricted myself from so many opportunities, choices and possibilities that could have materialized if not for
I have hated, and cried so many times in the name of
I have learnt to see things from so many new perspectives through
I have changed in so many ways and it’s all because of

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but don’t… cry.

don’t cry.